Kiwi and Pineapple

Deep inside
          Where nothing's fine
          I've lost my mind

Help...

Hey guys, sorry for making so many books for other people. I guess I still just haven't been able to tell everyone everything. If you want me to write a book, just ask. I don't mind.

How do you find out if your best friend is dead or alive when they live across an entire state from you? And how do you reply to a simple message that says 'Goodbye' when you know it means so much more?

I think I really do need to go to therapy or see a psychiatrist. But I don't think Scorpio would appreciate that, he didn't like therapists.
          
          I think I'm okay... Right?