For me, I'm just really dissatisfied with what the future holds. Like, is this really it? Is everyone 310% sure that I can't go somewhere and be a Dragonrider? Is there some secret club I should join so I could get a late acceptance into Hogwarts? Must I remain an unwilling participant in watching the mistakes I will make unfold before me? Must I remain here, doing these average things, as so many others have done before? Man it just really f#cks me up