@Se3lie , it is!! Previously @irlventiz , it is me Eve. I've been attempting to reach out since mid 2023, there's a quite much to unpack but the first thing I've been wanting to say ever since is:
I am so deeply sorry, I apologize for what I did, for having closed every communication way. There will never be words or actions to express how regretful I am for having done that.
You've always been present on my mind, sometimes I couldn't focus, there were times I've just wondered "How are they doing? God I hope they are well, truly well" with the deepest worry.
I can never forgive myself for what I did but I've made peace with that. To be completely honest you were the reason I kept writing, perhaps now not fanfiction, but I remember you more than well. You were the first person to comment on that terrible xiaoven fic, I recall being in my kitchen and jumping happily around. A month later you were my pen pal and my dearest friend.
You'd brought light to me when I was at my deepest, soupmate.
Those times were obscure for me, but I'd happily wake up exactly at 6am because of the hour difference, text you, and it would instantly become an awesome morning.
I'd love to talk with you once again, but that's up to you. I just wanted you to know that if I ever got the chance to contact you.
With the deepest appreciation and bittersweet regret,
—Evie/Eve