Hey guys, so i made a self diagnosis and i realised that i may have a disorder that has stemmed from my childhood and maybe genetics. i won't specified what it is but the discovery of this disorder makes me understand why i have been struggling for so long. To make friends, to keep friends, to love myself, doubting myself constantly etc.
what i came on to say is, i'm really bad at making and keeping friends to a point it hurts me to lose them than them hurting my feelings. I've made friends on wattpad and i try really hard to maintain our friendship but i feel like i treat them awful. if anyone had tried communicating with me on here and never got a reply, i'm really sorry and i promise i don't deliberately not answer but i overthink a lot r i'm busy. This message rn is me overthinking.
I wanted to leave this message here because.. idk but i've been in my head for weeks now. this doesn't even make sense huh?
I hope everyone is safe and taking care of themselves and what needs to be done. i also want to say that you all are beautiful souls that deserves so much and deserve all the love in the world. I pray that no one has the mental capacity i have because it's an awful feeling. take care.