I feel so awful. Like I’m finding out things about what he did to Maya Henry and two things can be true. He wasn’t a good partner to her, and we can still grieve his death. My sister was like shaming me for “supporting an abuser” how? I grew up with them and it was such a weird feeling. Literally have no one to talk about it with. I just played “best song ever” because that was Liam’s favorite and danced. I remember lifting up my phone and thinking oh whatever it’s another notification. And then I saw it said HE DIED. I kept repeating “WHAT” in a loud voice until my sister asked what was wrong. I felt like the struggle began in 2017 and perhaps someone could’ve helped him. I hope they do a thorough investigation. I feel sad yet troubled? I never focused on Liam but now I can’t help but to. It’s like when zayn left. I never focused on him but I felt this strange sense of sadness. It’s horrible to me because he had been spiraling this month and I just hoped it wasn’t true. Heck, I’m still hoping it isn’t true.
