Gay 24/7

I know I love her. Though it seems like love is the enemy it hasn't been. I wasn't the same before she came to my life. And I know without her I could not be who I am today. She is the girl I plan my future for. She is everything I know. She is all I know and I know it isn't a normal thing to have. But I have something that I have always dreamed of and though I'm astonished by her everyday, the thoughts make me smile and blush so hard at the thought of stolen glances and holding hands. Things that rash and brute like me wouldn't fall to... But when I talk to her... I open up... I let her see who I am and it turns out she loves that. She loves my dorky side and honestly... I do too. I was never one to believe in love but she helped me understand that the small things are what truly makes something beautiful. And she? She is something that I would die for. She is something that I want to stare at. Her eyes are something that I could stare at for hours and her heart keeps mine fluttering with every "I love you" or compliment. I don't understand how love could have been inside of me. But it was. And all I want now is her. Her... Nothing but her... She found me when I needed someone and healed me when my heart was bruised. She has been my safety and rock. And I owe it all to her. I wouldn't be who I am without her in my life and I won't be who I want to be if she isn't here. Because who I want is the person she makes me. The kind, laughable, strong willed being. Not the brash, cold, and silent being without her. 
          
          
          She is my everything. 
          
          And I just adore her. 
          
          I adore you Maddie... Everything about you.
          
          You are perfect to me. 
          
          
          And every fiber of my being wants nothing more than to spend my life next to you. 
          
          To marry you.
          
          Because I... Am forever yours.
          
          Forever eternally yours. 
          
          Eternally grateful... 
          
          I love you. <3

If I lay here.... 
          
          If I just lay here..... 
          
          Would you lie with me...
          
          and just forget the world.... ?

Hey everyone. Just a quick thing. I just updated Tapes! I know it's been a few weeks but I'm going to try to finish it soon. 
          
          Love you all.
          
          -El

Holy snap!
          
          9 followers! 
          
          Thank you all!  :3
          
          (New update coming soon)

OKAY! QUICK LITTLR THING!
          
          First! Love you guys! Thanks for the lucky 7. Thank you for the current rankings for me and Maddie's FIRST collab fic! Which if you haven't read is extreamy awesome! But then again... I'm the one who is writing it with my girl! So... It's going to be awesome to me! But I'm so proud of our story hitting ranks AND 250+ VIEWS! Like WHAT?! 
          
          Uhm. Yeah. Again huge shoutouts to you 7 and anyone who is reading this! I can't do anything without your love! 
          
          I plan on updating around tomorrow morning or so. Depending on when our schedule works for editing purposes! Believe me... Unedited is a trainwreck. 
          
          So! Huge shoutout to you all who are loving our story! We hope you'll stick around. Because you are in for a wild ride. 
          
          But there's one person I love more then any of you. My amazing girlfriend (WHO is... The other half of this account :) ) I couldn't have made any of this possible without you baby. I love you so much and I'm not letting go! Forever thankful and grateful for the everlasting love and support you give daily. And I intend to make sure your as happy as you can be with me. 
          
          Trust me. We can make it through anything.
          
          Anyway. Thank you to everyone! Hope you're doing well and I'll definitely let you know what's up. 
          
          
          Peace!✌
          
          -El 

Just an fyi for everyone who's enjoying my new story (probaly no one lol) that some of the major key points from the plotline are inspired by both Manhunt and Fight Club. 
          
          If you haven't watched the cutscenes from Manhunt (First game only), I suggest you do because it'll give you a bit of insite about how Beca is technically existing. Though Kendrick isn't who Beca thinks she is. In the end of the story scenes James Earl Cash (The man on the journey) meets the guy who had gotten him out and kept him alive, finding out he had betrayed him by doing obscure things with the recordings of the murders. Cash ends up killing the guy and in turn ending the story. Fight Club on the other hand focuses on the mental aspects of The Narrator's mind. Tapes combines the two, focusing on Cash's violent and homicidal tendencies while The Narrator's mental issues. I'm not saying that Beca is going to kill Kendrick. Because that isn't how my version of this plot follows, I'm saying that you guys should go do some research. Just to help understand why tf am I doing this.
          
          
          Manhunt is a survival horror game 
          
          https://youtu.be/dn0_qClBzcs
          
          Fight Club is a movie
          
          Just go watch it.... The ending is perfect...
          
          
          Just thought I'd clear some things up for you guys. More from me soon!
          
          -El (:

ATTENTION EVERYONE!!!!
          
          
          IT'S OUT!! GO CHECK IT OUT!
          
          https://my.w.tt/CJZgg5q27S

Hey everyone! Just want to let you guys know that "The Murder Tapes" is coming along quite nicely and I hope to have it done in a month or so. Until that time comes, I'll keep you guys informed of what's going on!
          
          
          Love you awesome nerds!
          
          -E :)