Alright so uh, first off, Idk why I'm trynna do this but uh, I guess this actually helps a lot.
Not gonna lie, this years christmas wasn't as bad as always. I really hope i was able to not disturb people too badly by messaging 'Merry Christmas' and uh, I feel empty just by thinking. I feel like I'm gettin' shyer and weirder every day and I also feel like finding a way to fail over and over again to finally kill my determination of carrying on. I don't know what to do anymore, it feels like I'm an empty kind of shell or old box. Bad thing is that I'll firstly get therapy in january, yay .-.
