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Cross doesn't jump when the guardian of negativity appears beside him out of thin air, but he's willing to acknowledge the way his soul lurches in his chest in it's surprise.
          	  There's immediately an obvious tension in his shoulders, his steps faltering for a moment before adjusting to Nightmare's speed.
          	  "My King." Was his polite greeting, dipping his head even as they walked.
          	  He doesn't make himself smaller, even as the guardians aura demands he shrink and hide. It's.. difficult. But he thinks it's more respectful than cowering like a dog in the face of your ruler. 
          	  
          	  If his shoulders drop an inch at the dismissal of his efforts, well. Nightmare definitely notices. But he hopes he doesn't bring it up. 
          	  "I.. apologise. Sir. If you have any suggestions I'll be sure to include them in tomorrow's training, should it please you." He offered, fighting the urge to look to the ground as he kept his gaze on the boss. 
          	  
          	  He does jump when he feels the sensation of a tentacle pressing against his throat, however. 
          	  It's weird. But it's Nightmare. So he doesn't comment on it. (He could, if he wanted his throat ripped out.)
          	  His mind races a hundred miles a minute. Was Nightmare killing him? Was it with Error's permission? Did Nightmare care about the wrath of the destroyer? Or did he merely see the rented soldier as another toy to play war with? 
          	  
          	  It slips away before he can settle on a conclusion, and he watches it fall back into its resting state with a slight frown tugging at his teeth. 
          	  "... Can I help you, my king?" He eventually asks, hopefully taking the hint. He didn't know *why* Nightmare had sought him out. But if he was lucky it would merely be a surprise mission, and not some disastrous torture for the crime of.. not working out enough. Perhaps offering his services would lessen any distaste the god held for him. Or maybe he was overthinking things, and Nightmare simply liked bothering a part of the team as much as Killer did.
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Cross isn't freaking out on the inside at all. He's not worried that he's going to die over some stupid deal that he got f#cked over with. And he's not definitely not pissed off at the way his opponent tilts his head, like he's a curious little cat figuring out how he ticks. 
          	  
          	  Killer reacts frustratingly fast. When Cross throws his fist he completely misses his mark, hitting the other's arms in what would likely leave a nasty bruise at most. 
          	  He doesn't know why he's off his game. Why he let his guard down, even a little bit. But he's paying the price for it now. 
          	  
          	  His follow-up punch is thrown with his entire weight behind it, aimed for the shoulder (knock it out. Watch it dust. Hope Killer's not ambidextrous.). 
          	  Instead his momentum is used against him and he's grabbed by his coat and swung.
          	  (Sometimes it wasn't good to be made of bone, when you were so easily thrown around. There was only so much weight that layers of clothes could add on.)
          	  
          	  His body hits the ground, and although he turns it into more of a roll than a collision, he's acutely aware that he's so fucking dead if he doesn't up his game.
          	  He's not too prideful to admit when he's unfit for a situation, and frankly he doesn't know how to behave around other skeletons.
          	  "Piss off!" He barks, frustration in his tone. He wants to grab his gun and shoot, it's the easiest way to end things, but he's too close to the other, and on the fucking ground. He was at a disadvantage.
          	  Well. He could even the playing fields, he supposed.
          	  It's easy to lunge for the other. It's less easy to yank him to the ground, but he tries his damned hardest.
          	  He's forgotten he can teleport in the heat of the moment.
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Sh1TsTicKs

I'm not going to make ya'll (Prospective role-players) dig. I'll throw examples below here. glances around. HELP!

Sh1TsTicKs

Cross doesn't jump when the guardian of negativity appears beside him out of thin air, but he's willing to acknowledge the way his soul lurches in his chest in it's surprise.
            There's immediately an obvious tension in his shoulders, his steps faltering for a moment before adjusting to Nightmare's speed.
            "My King." Was his polite greeting, dipping his head even as they walked.
            He doesn't make himself smaller, even as the guardians aura demands he shrink and hide. It's.. difficult. But he thinks it's more respectful than cowering like a dog in the face of your ruler. 
            
            If his shoulders drop an inch at the dismissal of his efforts, well. Nightmare definitely notices. But he hopes he doesn't bring it up. 
            "I.. apologise. Sir. If you have any suggestions I'll be sure to include them in tomorrow's training, should it please you." He offered, fighting the urge to look to the ground as he kept his gaze on the boss. 
            
            He does jump when he feels the sensation of a tentacle pressing against his throat, however. 
            It's weird. But it's Nightmare. So he doesn't comment on it. (He could, if he wanted his throat ripped out.)
            His mind races a hundred miles a minute. Was Nightmare killing him? Was it with Error's permission? Did Nightmare care about the wrath of the destroyer? Or did he merely see the rented soldier as another toy to play war with? 
            
            It slips away before he can settle on a conclusion, and he watches it fall back into its resting state with a slight frown tugging at his teeth. 
            "... Can I help you, my king?" He eventually asks, hopefully taking the hint. He didn't know *why* Nightmare had sought him out. But if he was lucky it would merely be a surprise mission, and not some disastrous torture for the crime of.. not working out enough. Perhaps offering his services would lessen any distaste the god held for him. Or maybe he was overthinking things, and Nightmare simply liked bothering a part of the team as much as Killer did.
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Cross isn't freaking out on the inside at all. He's not worried that he's going to die over some stupid deal that he got f#cked over with. And he's not definitely not pissed off at the way his opponent tilts his head, like he's a curious little cat figuring out how he ticks. 
            
            Killer reacts frustratingly fast. When Cross throws his fist he completely misses his mark, hitting the other's arms in what would likely leave a nasty bruise at most. 
            He doesn't know why he's off his game. Why he let his guard down, even a little bit. But he's paying the price for it now. 
            
            His follow-up punch is thrown with his entire weight behind it, aimed for the shoulder (knock it out. Watch it dust. Hope Killer's not ambidextrous.). 
            Instead his momentum is used against him and he's grabbed by his coat and swung.
            (Sometimes it wasn't good to be made of bone, when you were so easily thrown around. There was only so much weight that layers of clothes could add on.)
            
            His body hits the ground, and although he turns it into more of a roll than a collision, he's acutely aware that he's so fucking dead if he doesn't up his game.
            He's not too prideful to admit when he's unfit for a situation, and frankly he doesn't know how to behave around other skeletons.
            "Piss off!" He barks, frustration in his tone. He wants to grab his gun and shoot, it's the easiest way to end things, but he's too close to the other, and on the fucking ground. He was at a disadvantage.
            Well. He could even the playing fields, he supposed.
            It's easy to lunge for the other. It's less easy to yank him to the ground, but he tries his damned hardest.
            He's forgotten he can teleport in the heat of the moment.
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chat it is absolutely batshit to glance back at all this

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On another note. If I've approached you for roleplay recently. lets just clarify that I'm capable of shame. Please don't look back at 14 year old me, because I'm not! Who wants that kinda torture am I right?
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I used to be so....edgy.
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"is there... Any chance we'll win...?" He'd whispered, voice wobbling as he stared up into their eyes,tears steaming down his face.
          "There are no winners in this game, my love. Only survivors. And I pray to whatever god is up there, that we survive. For we are young, and our bones are not brittle, and we are not yet ready to rest in our graves.
          We are not yet ready to fall." They murmured, sliding their hand up the others face and cupping his cheek as they stared into his eyes. It was cold. So, so cold. 
          "But they are young too...." he'd murmured, a harsh reminder, that made the other frown.
          "There is no sense of fairness here. There is only blood, and violence, and death." They scowled,stepping away. "This is a matter of life or death. We must not linger on anything other than our own survival-" "Would you kill me?" He blurted, and just like that, it was silent.
          And sometimes silence was answer enough. 

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Family doesn't wanna get me vaccinated for COVID-19, wish me luck fellas 

Allysdoodles

@Sh1TsTicKs I know right they can put poison in food if they wanted to! also Trump had a lot of vaccines when he had covid
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@Firefly9222 exactly! And it would be so much easier to fuck up the water supply than send out vaccines with shit in it, it would be cheaper to fuck with the water
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Allysdoodles

@Sh1TsTicKs don't we already have things that control us all the time like adds or social media
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- VENT - ( I just need to write this out you really don't have to read it
           Sorry. Love you. )
          
          I just wanna whack my head against a wall, repeatedly. 
          I have friends, and people I care for, and for some fucked up reason the idea of being there for them emotionally is exhausting? "what would you do if I killed myself" they ask and I love them so much but part of me is convinced I would barely shed a tear? I imagine my family dying for whatever reason and I imagine knowing they're dead and yeah I'm lonely and it's upsetting but I don't see myself being sad? I can't imagine it. I look at my cat though, and I imagine him dying, and I feel like I'd be distraught for atleast a couple of days, I feel like I'd she'd a tear
          Imagination against experience proves me wrong, tells me I would cry if they were so much as in a hospital, but my brains so convinced, through the imaginations, that I'd barely care.
          I want to care. I want to be upset if they're gone. I'm crying right now because I'm writing this yet my mind's trying to tell me if a friend were to die all I would do is miss them.
          

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@Sh1TsTicKs Everyone's mentally fucked up to an extent in this world, no one's sane, yet here I am being greedy wanting to ask my friends to stop venting to me about how they've self harmed and how they wanna die and it's disgusting, I'm disgusting, and I'm emotionally exhausted already from just looking at my existence.
            Why am I so willing to talk about such problems with people I don't know online over the people I know in real life? Is it because of the potential consequences? I can't leave the messages we've made and only have to worry over it when we're talking again, I have to see them in real life, and for everyone and every action I make I have to acknowledge that my choices and actions and words could lead to something far far worse than just tears and overall existing is just exhausting and
            I can't even stick to one subject. This rant is a mess. I just need to rant. And I don't want to be aiming it all at one person. I don't want it to be aimed at anyone, I don't want to force them to take on the emotional responsibility of knowing me and my problems the most I want is for them to wish me luck and be on their way because life is exhausting as is and worrying about others constantly makes it so much worse.
            Emotions are exhausting. The responsibility I have over my own life is exhausting and I don't feel like I'm responsible enough to be the one in control when there's so many choices everyday ranging from which word I write down next to how I tried to coerce a friend out of harming themselves and the fact that every choice changes something and has an affect is just terrible, why am I trusted with such a thing? 
            I hate it. 
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