ShadowSpider69

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Istg, I haven't been able to cry for weeks and now I'm watching Harry Potter for like, the 50th time (no kidding, I think if you would count how many times I watched one of the movies, you would get to 50)
          	
          	AND NOW I'M FUCKING BAWLING MY EYES OUT AT DOBBY'S DEATH ONCE AGAIN.
          	
          	I hate this.

ShadowSpider69

@ Alex87842  I've been becoming so numb that fuckin nothing could make me cry, one of my best friendships falling apart? Naahh, we'll just go numb. My knee will be a problem for the next 3 years? Naaaaahhhh, no worries, go numb. Sad tiktok?? NAAAAAHHH nothing's happening
          	  
          	  BUT DOBBY???????
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Alex87842

@ShadowSpider69 you should've just read, the poetry on tiktok
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ShadowSpider69

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Istg, I haven't been able to cry for weeks and now I'm watching Harry Potter for like, the 50th time (no kidding, I think if you would count how many times I watched one of the movies, you would get to 50)
          
          AND NOW I'M FUCKING BAWLING MY EYES OUT AT DOBBY'S DEATH ONCE AGAIN.
          
          I hate this.

ShadowSpider69

@ Alex87842  I've been becoming so numb that fuckin nothing could make me cry, one of my best friendships falling apart? Naahh, we'll just go numb. My knee will be a problem for the next 3 years? Naaaaahhhh, no worries, go numb. Sad tiktok?? NAAAAAHHH nothing's happening
            
            BUT DOBBY???????
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Alex87842

@ShadowSpider69 you should've just read, the poetry on tiktok
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ShadowSpider69

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I uh
          
          I need a break.
          
          From everything.
          
          Thank you all for being here for me consistently even though I am incosistent as fuck.
          
          In uh, the last few weeks I've been feeling alone like I haven't felt in a long time and I hurt some people who are really dear to me and I just... I need to really do some self-reflecting because I always think that I fixed myself and then I go straight back to hurting those I truly love.
          
          I need some time... alone...
          
          I will definitely finish the books I have published but I don't know if there will be any more.
          
          At this moment I don't really know anything.
          
          Also, fun fact, the new of my knee only got even worse and instead of a knee surgery they gonna have to do a surgery on my shin bone and uh, yeah.
          
          I'm stressed out.
          
          Thank you.

randomfootballlover

@ShadowSpider69 you shouldn't ever feel the need to apologise to us, you should always focus on yourself first and remember that getting better both physically and mentally isnt always linear, but you are always making progress, dont let the setbacks put you down!  I wish you luck and hope you start to see progress. I'll always wait for your updates and if you ever need anything, don't hesitate to message me.
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Alea-78

You deserve your time to get better, don’t blame yourself too much for the past mistakes, sometimes we are too cruel with ourselves when we are simply lost… You’ll feel better, trust and take care!! I’ll be waiting on the other side for your updates, no matter how long it takes. I wish you the best! Stay strong!
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j2024j

Hey it’s okay, you take care of yourself. If you need anything let me know.
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anaspancakes

WHAT WAS THAT ENDING NO WHY DID YOU HAVE TO DO THAT

anaspancakes

@Shadowrealm2001 no but it was very heartbreaking so thank you for the chapter after that..
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ShadowSpider69

@ anaspancakes  HAHAHHAAHAHHAHAA, now, did I ever say that it was the end???
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ShadowSpider69

It's time for a comeback of a character

randomfootballlover

Ooo exciting
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ShadowSpider69

@ Womansfootball102  big thing incoming
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HeatherNill2512

@Womansfootball102 same tbh
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ShadowSpider69

I was so happy to see Barca win the UWCL. Those girls deserved it!
          
          As for emptional states? I'm not okay. Bonmati and Alexia scoring, the oh so iconic bow, shirtless, might I add, the big drum. It's-
          It was perfection.
          
          I love this team so much.
          
          Congratulations to the girlies.

ShadowSpider69

@ ratIRL2929  I was watching the final with my parents but when the shirt went off, my eyes were glued to the screen (I really am not better than a man)
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ShadowSpider69

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@ Womansfootball102  that was a fucking scare but at that moment I was also so concerned for Cata Coll, that landing looked so damn bad
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ratIRL2929

When Alexia bowed I started screaming
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ShadowSpider69

I will miss seeing Vivi with Arsenal...
          
          I don't get upset that much over moves of payers because that's just what happens in professional football but holy damn this one actually hit hard.
          
          If it's true that she's gonna move to City, I cannot wait to see her play with Roord and Casperij, wishing her all the best

HeatherNill2512

@Shadowrealm2001 yeahhh like if she left on her own it would be fine and I can come to terms with it but the fact that she wasn’t even given one still baffles me
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ShadowSpider69

@ juliendrf  it was such great news to read! I'm happy for all parties involved!
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juliendrf

@Shadowrealm2001 yes and oml this really made my day!!
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ShadowSpider69

I miss the direct messages function.
          
          Ef u Wattpad.
          
          Love you all

ShadowSpider69

@ juliendrf  I feel you. I also miss going to my dms and just reading the supportive messages ya know? I also don't want to go on here and just post my other socials because then it starts to feel sp much more personal? Like... I love all of the follows but the thing I love about Wattpad is the anonymosity (or sumthing like that)
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juliendrf

@Shadowrealm2001 i don’t know why they’ve stopped it instead of developing it more. I mean… it’s not like I want to share my instagram with everyone
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juliendrf

omg same!!
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