@28honeypie Yes, thank you for reading. What you're saying is exactly what I've wanted to convey to the readers.
It's supposed to be a toxic relationship, that wasn't actually toxic from the start.
They have known each other for a long time.
As you must have read, they dated each other before they got forcefully married.
Their relationship used to be pure, honest and innocent.
But something happened that changed its trajectory.
But that never meant that it just erased the love they had for each other.
In bl mainstream media, you'll find only one shade of toxicity.
The top will be toxic throughout, while the bottom will keep suffering and in the end they'll still forgive and forget.
For me I was tired of that, For I have seen my fair share of toxic relationships, and I wanted to convey, that toxicity comes in all forms, and toxic relationships have a lot of shades and layers.
Like mine, they are always in a constant tug of war.
Not understanding what and why the other is doing what they are and ending up hurting each other in the process.
If you do decide to read till the end, you'll find out why and what is exactly going on.
This relationship might seem weird to you, because if you're a chronic bl reader like me, I'm very sure you must not have read something like this before, and that is exactly what I've wanted to change.