Yesterday, I saw a girl happily chatting with her friends, she was friendly to all of us, but other people seems doesn't like her. While I was in the garden a boy come to me and sit besides me, suddenly he started to talk to me. "Hey bro." I looked at him not replying and he continue "you see that girl over there?" I look to the girl she pointed, and it was the girl from yesterday will same. "Yeah, what about her?" I said. "The girl laughs and smiles to everyone around her, she is also funny making her friends laugh, but behind those laugh and smiles, she is hurting inside, she is tired,
but she won't let them know how tired she is, she doesn't want them to know that she is weak. So she keeps it inside instead telling this to them. Even her smile is fake to everyone, her eyes are real pain, she wanted to ask for help but she can't, she want someone to comfort her but no one is there for her" he said while I'm looking down on my feet, tears streaming down on my face. "She is fighting her depression for 3 years, but how long does she takes it?"
That's right, I also have a depression. I was tired from this world that my only escape is to kill myself, but... When I saw that girl, my girlfriend was in pain because of my death, it hurts me. What hurts me the most is I didn't know she has same depression as me, I left her and now she is even more pain because of me... I'm sorry my love for leaving you in this cruel world, I'm sorry if I was the reason your in pain right now, I'm sorry I left you... But my love, I hope in next life. Our next life, please be my girlfriend again....