AstrologicalError

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So, hey. It's been a while. 
          You probably don't remember me, after brushing me aside like trash, so for the record, I'm Ciel (now known as Ethan). 
          
          I don't know if you'll get this message. Whether you're on this app anymore. You may find it someday searching through your old profiles. 
          
          Anyway, I don't know what went wrong. 
          It has been almost a year by now, so frankly I don't know myself why I bother, but here we are. 
          We seemed like such good friends. We watched funny videos together, stayed up and talked, watched cringy asmr videos. It was great. 
          But one day, that ended. I may have said something, I can't remember. 
          But everything fell apart. 
          
          I can understand if I did something unforgivable, but I don't recall. I was going through an obscenely rough time, trying to figure out who I was, and trying to avoid any hatred or discrimination that may come to me. 
          
          But no, I don't get help. I get "I hope you kill yourself." and "What a faggot." I hope older you is reading this and realised what you did. 
          
          On the bright side (for me atleast), I didn't. I was able to fucking suck it up and move on. I should probably be thanking you, but you don't deserve thanks. :) 
          
          Well, that was that. I was just scrolling through old messages and found it again. Even after at least half a year, I'm yet to tell anyone. 
          Imagine that? Keeping something so painful to you bottled up for a while, knowing people would think you're lying if you told them. 
          
          I hope you revived this, Shay. 
          
          And I hope you learned a fucking lesson.