I've been feeling nothing lately. Sure, I have bursts of excitement, sadness, or anger, but they don't last long. I've just been drifting along like an eel in water.
I don't feel much anymore which in turn has me not really caring for anything.
Sure, I'll talk to people if they reach out to me, but I'm someone who keeps everything to themselves because I was taught that no one would care about what I'm feeling or what I'd have to say. (Which yes, does make it hard to write these.)
But overall, I can't bring myself to really care for anything.
It's a horrible feeling, going from caring about everything (which is something that happens sometimes when these bouts of emotionaless, unfeeling and uncaring moods aren't taking up space) to caring about nothing at all.
I want to update my books, hang out with friends ect. but I can't bring myself to no matter what.
I'm sorry about this whole trauma dumping paragraph, but I needed go get my thoughts and feelings (or lack thereof) out.
Hopefully this all goes away soon and I can go back to writing because I genuinely enjoy it. But as of now, it's unlikely that I would be able to write even a few paragraphs.
I hope you guys understand.