Sheikha411

Why are the skibidi toilet urban dictionary entries so angry HELP

I want a kid but I don't wanna go through the process of having a kid js the thought of pregnancy makes me scared and want to puke. Sadly, adoption is haram..

My problems aren't actually that srs I should stop being a crybaby

Why am I a woman? Not saying that I want to be a man. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE the female body structure (I sound like a reddit inc*l wtf) but.. I want the privileges of being a man. Today for example, I was studying math and my brother fucked smth up (Idk, I wasn't paying attention but he needed a towel) so he got up and started looking for one. When mom realized that we don't have a towel box in the living room what did she do? Order ME to bring a towel even though I was literally DROWNING with papers and HE was standing! And she didn't even do it politely at least she was "Hey, you. (We have female/male ways of saying you so it was directed at me) go get a towel from the kitchen!" (We keep towel boxes in the kitchen) like bitch?? HE'S FUCKING STANDING WHY ME?? Ik its not that srs there are times when what she does is worse and obv misogynistic but this is what first came to mind. My father wants me to be "Woman of the household" cuz my sisters are old and have college/jobs but for SOME reason my brothers don't have to be "men of the household"! What the fuck?? why do I have to work while THEY get to sit back, stay up for football matches, get away with most stuff cuz they have a dixk instead of a puss (Wtf was that)! Oh and not related to the misogyny but WHY IS MY MOM REFUSING MY BROTHER'S (7 year old, I hate him but not to the point where I don't want him to get a diagnosis cuz that would help him a lot in life) ADHD DIAGNOSIS? LIKE HO HE CAN'T STAY STILL, HE GETS INTO TROUBLE A LOT, HE FOCUSES ON STUFF WAY TOO MUCH AND HE'S EASILY DISTRACTED THATS OBVIOUSLY ADHD AND *NOT* JUST HIM BEING A "KID"! I WENT THROUGH THAT, I WAS LIKE THAT, NOW THAT IM KINDA MATURE I CAN TELL THAT BOTH ME AND HIM HAVE ADHD SO AT LEAST LET YOUR BABY BOY GO TO A PSYCHOLOGIST (So I can ask the psychologist to gimme an AuDHD diagnosis but shh we don't talk abt that)! I have 7 more papers of math I don't wanna do them I studied enough but mom will scold me..
          I miss my girlfriend.

fml nothing is fun anymore. Not even video games.. don't have a hyperfixation rn.. manhwa and animes don't cut it either.. I dunno I just.. wanna end it.. life is empty.. whats my purpose..? I just wanna be free.. of thoughts.. every time I see a knife I hear someone say "do it! do it!" but I also don't want to.. I.. have to go study math I guess.. bye..?

this disgusts me. "I" am not even me. My thoughts are different than my actions. I look back to stuff I do and think "what..? Who's saying these stuff..?" I lit have my brain turned off I can't stand thinking abt anything anymore I'm just following life aimlessly

I feel like choking myself to death

hoi seikha
          i got flamed for 2 days
          so uhh yeah ts is purpel2234 btw

Muted..?

Lagging?