Idfk where else to write about how I’m feeling without anyone I know irl seeing it so I guess I’ll write it here. I am so sad rn but I’ve been sad for so long that I’m afraid that I’ll annoy my friends and they won’t want to be around me anymore so I stop texting as much but that is distancing myself from my friends more and now I’m scared that I’ll lose someone who I love so much. She was/is basically my girlfriend (but isn’t..?) and she is too good for me and because I am going through whatever I am ruining everything. I’ve ruined everything that ever mattered to me and now I honestly don’t see the point. I am sad, I’m not succeeding in anything, and now I can’t even keep my friends around.... what’s the point. I try to talk to my mom but she says “oh but you seem so happy.” WELL THAT’S THE POINT I HIDE IT!!! God idk how much longer I can take it....