For over a year now I’ve been going through a family crisis. I am disabled with A fib, RVR, CHF, bipolar manic depression, and an anxiety disorder severe enough that I have agoraphobia. The family crisis I’ve been going through is my mother was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer. She got treatment and got better, It came back and in September early October she was read diagnosed with stage four metastasized Pancreatic Cancer. She was doing really well until last month well actually December. Since December she’s been going downhill last month they got worse at the end of the month they decided it was time to bring in hospice. Over the past year I’ve stopped writing and only been reading. I use reading as an escape. You see my mother lives in Arizona and I live in Missouri and due to finances I haven’t been able to go see her. This morning I got a call from my sister she’s taken a turn down hill is now on morphine full-time and sleeping full-time. So for those who stories I have commented on if I comment and it seems a little odd or off for my normal comments this is the reason why. They tell me that my mother will be lucky to make it to the end of this month and I still have no idea how I’m going to get out there. I’m not telling anyone this For sympathy or to try and get money or anything like that I’m just letting everyone know that if I comment on your story and it seems odd or strange there is a reason behind it and this is the reason.