you're a human, you know. humans have limitations, and humans aren't meant to be alone too. that's not how we're made. so that's why you don't have to do this on your own. please allow yourself to take some rests, and take care of yourself, even during the bad days. It's alright to cry. but please please please don't hurt yourself, if that may be the case. you may not feel good today, you may feel inadequate and worthless. life would really suck right now, but truthfully, that is what life is.
THIS IS A SIGN THAT EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT IN THE END IF IT'S STILL NOT OKAY THEN IT'S STILL NOT THE END. because even if i don't even know who you are, i want to see through this with you, i want to see that in the future, you'll be glad you hanged on (not in a self-harming way okay??). i'm proud of you always, even with the simplesr things you've accomplished. small progress is a progress. i'll pray and wish all the best for you. you'll be okay, please trust this random person in the internet.
i might just be assuming right now, and though i don't fully grasp how hard your situation is, do know that i want all the good things for you, whoever you may be. i want you to live. but i don't want you to just exist. you deserve to feel alive. you deserve food, pleasure, rest. you deserve the stuff you have and love. you deserve life. you deserve the sky, the sun, the stars and moon above you, to which you look at and think what's good about you. and you know what? it's everything. you deserve everything, even if you think you don't. you can't always be strong.
just this once. you'll get there. a good tomorrow is coming, and i'm hoping we could see it together. i love you.