Just wanna rant. I have no other place in mind but here. I know it s a safe place but this is too hard to bare.
(You can ignore this rant)
I don't know what's one person's problem that they only care for one mistake and will be drilling you and reminding you about that mistakes again and again, when you already moved past it because it already happened and have been more careful not to repeat.
It's that they expect you to be perfect. Because they are a person who doesn't make mistakes, plans up perfectly and expected you to be like them. Well, I'm not them. I'm just me.
We all are prone to make mistakes and that is human. But that isn't also an excuse to continue to make mistakes, when your trying to be better. Still I'm not a robot who will just become perfect after pressing a button.
But let me ask you, you make the same mistakes (being late, not wearing proper shoes for just that one day, not updating them within 10 mins..ect.) and they will go on and interrogate you like you did the biggest sin ever. Sometimes, they will do something drastic, which led me to just accept any conditions they say.
I wanna feel numb but how can I knowing what the conditions are?
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How can you tell apart from defending and telling the truth? To them, what I say is always an excuse, never once consider what I feel on my shoes or what made me say those words. So making it fair, I chose not to understand them as well.
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I have been feeling so HIPPING unwell, more down than I ever felt for months now. I just held it all in, each time mistakes were made.
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I'm listening to songs just to drown this all out.
