🌈MABEL!🌠

Hello

Happy new year. I have the courage to finally put this out there...I realized in November that my parents were abusive. I still love them, obvs, and I still live with them because there is no feasible means of escape. If I was better at saving money, I'd have more of a chance. But still, I have nowhere to go. I'm no longer being physically abused, because I'm an adult. When I was little (like 6-8), my parents literally told me that wishing there was no such thing as corporal punishment could result in everyone in the world being damned. And they acted like that was funny. They read child abuse manuals that said that if a child doesn't cry, do it longer and harder until they do. Sometimes they were loving, and sometimes they seemed like overgrown playground bullies who justified everything they did with Scripture. I also was very isolated growing up and even as an adult, my mom whines and guilt trips me when I talk about making friends. "I'm glad to know you don't care about your family." And my older sister is totally part of this. I know she was abused and also parentified, but it would take a miracle for her to break the cycle. With my younger sisters, there's more of a chance. I would be the black sheep if my mom found out I posted this. My phone would be taken away, and I'd get called "liberal", "humanist", " feminist", "snowflake", etc. Even though I'm almost 21. I wish I could go to therapy, but my parents would have to drive me there, and they probably wouldn't allow it. My one IRL friend is my little sis, who's turning 14 on Sunday. (My other younger sister isn't that bad anymore, either.) I know there are probably many of you who had much worse childhoods who think I'm just whining. But I'm sure there are also kids here whose parents chose a better way, because there has to be one.

This is gonna sound silly, but I lost my sister's birthday present. Her birthday is the 4th. I have something else for her too, so I guess it's not the end of the world, but I'm really mad at myself for losing it!!!!! So, uh, please pray that I find it?

Been tryna talk to my sister about it
          We joke a million jokes through the phone
          Nothing funny about that home
          But her and I, we already know
          
          
          CONAN GRAYYYYYY, HOW DARE YOU WRITE A SONG ABOUT MY LIFE *sobs*

I feel dead inside. Mentally I'm about 6, yet I feel so old, it feels like I belong in a nursing home. I don't think I'll ever be happy.

Stickers, stickers, STICKERS!!!!!!

When I realize my OC is like across between Wendy Corduroy, Ruffnut, and Rachel Elizabeth Dare, should I be concerned?

Not meant as an insult, I think she's pretty actually, but does anyone else feel like Ariana Grande always looks like she's about to burst into tears?

P.S.: I also am extremely sick of the phrase "manic pixie dream girl". As a weird 17-year-old just learning about the trope, I saw comments saying "no real girl acts like that!" and I (who happens to act like that) was convinced I didn't actually exist. No kidding. 3 years later, I realize what they're actually saying is that those characters are mainly filtered through the gaze of a boring, shallow male character, but I indeed am a lot like that and I do exist. I just hope I find someone who actually loves me and doesn't...fetishize me? Comment with tropes you're sick of hearing about.

No one:
          Me: I AM SO SO SO SO SO SO SO SICK OF THE PHRASE MARY SUE I DON'T KNOW WHY I JUST AM AND GARY STU IS EVEN WORSE WHO THE HELL THREW SPONGEBOB'S SNAIL INTO A STEW POT AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH