I know I'm not even 20 yet, and I'm supposed to have my whole life ahead of me, but hoping for the best seems like a big mistake right now. I'm hiding with my youngest sis in her room, and I know I'm not supposed to blast loud music through headphones, but it has to be loud enough to drown out the fighting in the living room. And no, it's not my parents. It's my other 2 sisters! They've been destroying each other lately. A couple of years ago, they worked together to destroy me instead. I thought about suicide multiple times a day. But I started running from fights, and now they've been nicer to me. I'm still worried one of these days they'll start it up again, if I finally find my voice and stand up for what's right. At this point, if I get a job, any day at work will be a day off from my home life, and not vice versa like it's supposed to be. Weird, I haven't cut myself or anything (though I did think about it), but my arm feels like it's been scratched. I rolled up my sleeve and didn't find anything. My youngest sis, who turned 13 last Saturday, has been getting depressed and I'm trying to be strong for her, but I feel like I'm breaking...
