Shire

*IMPORTANT*
          
          Please, if you are one of my readers and you are wondering what happened to all of the fanfiction and why everything is going so slow. You need to read my new book 'her downfall' which... Well, it explains my downfall and the loss of passion I've had for writing fanfiction.
          
          I don't know if I'm going to be continuing my fanfiction, I really don't. I don't know if I can. 
          
          I really can't explain myself in 2000 characters and you're just gonna have to trust me on this. There was to much that happened for me to put simply. If you have questions, leave them in the comments there and if you know anyone who has read my books and wants to know what's going on, give them this book because it's all I have right now.
          
          Please don't assume anything yet. I haven't made a decisions and this is really hard on me knowing there's so many people out there who were so invested in the things I made. More importantly this is really hard on you guys seeing another author who might suddenly just disappear and leave a broken story line just floundering around on wattpad.
          
          Please read the book and keep an open mind, no assumptions, no judgement, no pity. Just... An open mind
          
          -Shire

It breaks my heart that kitty chim chims views and stuff are all basically going to be erased, that being said, it's a must if I'm going to clean up the story and make it better 

@tanvi8765 aww of course! Keep up the good work! I know how tough it can be to post something you worked your heart out on. I'm here to support!

New poem out on etsy!
          
          https://www.etsy.com/listing/1204979299/in-my-head

If any of you know any digital cartoonist, in the future I want to revise the field trip and make it into a web toon or something. Please let me know!
          
          Updates this week!
          
          -Kitty chim chim
          
          -living with a prince

New updates coming soon! Waht would you guys like me to update in the future?
          
          Check out some of the things I make down on etsy!  
          
          https://www.etsy.com/listing/1075903502/glitter-orb-earrings-set

Long time no see, right? Updates are slow but I have to warn ya'll of something before you say anything. Me writing now vs. me writing 2, 3, 4, years ago is going to look very different. I might not write as often and as well as I used to because over these years I've lost a lot of who I was and I have gotten some new traits and disorders that sort of hold me back. 
          
          I need you guys to keep an open mind about this because a lot of people take this the wrong way. I have HOCD and I developed this because of 2 consecutive huge heartbreaks. Essentially what it is is OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder) but instead of hyper focusing on the amount of times I press a button or how many times I wash my hands. It focuses on my sexual orientation. So logically I know I'm straight, but anytime I catch myself wanting admiring another girls outfit or thinking she's pretty. My brain automatically instills a ton of doubt into my head. Basically all the what if questions and it is extremely overwhelming. 
          
          A lot of people take this as an opportunity to tell me "stop fighting it you're probably just a lesbian," which doesn't help me at all and trying to force me to do something I know isn't the answer just pushes me into a corner. This is a genuine disorder that can happen to people of all sexuality because it's just OCD with a different mask
          
          That being said, I'm a writer. it's my job to go into different point of views and try to imitate the feelings of other characters. So when I go into another male's point of view, I found it to be extremely challenging. But this is just another obstacle I'm going to overcome to keep giving you guys the writing I've owed you for years now. 
          
          Comment some things you'd like me to update in the meantime!
          
          sincerely,
          Shireblossom72

Mind checking out my book??
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/263521495?utm_source=android&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create&wp_uname=MochiBae6&wp_originator=csUWMx64%2BuuSg0mknkXtVPAnK%2FUwKGJklBi6eA8pbx6x5Cdw5H8eKQ9HlkcKyxczR95elYueLgMUVaxs%2BtzC5HVhCmej6oVXJ0AJXkON7BN5zRUBrdNZ6W8HjmCcdZTR

I didn't keep my promise and I don't know how to fix this. i want to do so many things but this whole account is a literal mess right now not to mention my life outside of school. So I'm just gonna do what I used to do and write as I go. For all of you wondering my writing style. I don't even know what the ending is going to be for most books. i just used my overthinking to my advantage and let it carry me out and actually that's all the field trip used to be. It was just an imaginary world inside my head. i did that because I had such a vivid imagination and I have lost a lot of that. But the best way to get a skill back That I at least know of is practicing. So I will continue writing and try to add in some of my actual writing skills in. Cause as much as I want to make a career out of this. I want to make my works of art more then I want whatever comes from it.

well I certainly lost myself for awhile there. I'm so sorry everybody, this has really been a tough set of months. I have literally been worrying about the freaking views on a book which goes to show how truly easy it is to fall into a need for attention and fame which is something I've always wanted in my life. But this is not the way to do it. The purpose of me writing these books is to help other people going through things I can't physically help them with. And that is what I am going to go back to doing
          
          writing to help people cope
          
          stay alive people, I love you
          
          -sincerely shire