Shivaja Pillai

Hello again after 3 years!
          
          I just wanna let you all know that I published all the chapters of my old book. It is simply a workaround to prevent my WP account from getting deleted due to inactivity. 
          
          My writing style sounds crazy 5 years ago. I just left it untouched.
          I'll not be publishing anything else here.
          
          
          
          A short update:
          
          The whole WP UI has changed a lot since I logged in. 
          So, did my life. Full of peace and growth!
          
          I've completed my PhD during this huge break. Yes, Kudos to me!
          
          And, yeah. I'm 24 and still single for those who are curious about that aspect. The hero of my poems has not yet graced his Darshanam!
          
          
          Letting go of this virtual baggage of online emotions and much more, I started concentrating on my life. The time was well spent and I began to attract gems of humans in real life. It's no more a circle, just a dot. But, satisfied as an emotionally mature adult!
          
          Gotten initiated into proper spiritual practices following the Shaakta Sampradaya. It's just the best thing that can happen to any human. Traversing the planes of spirituality and experiencing true bliss is beyond words. Thankful to the Guru Kripa and Bhagavad Kripa.
          
          Recently, I just got an email from WP that my account could proceed toward deletion due to inactivity. Not knowing what to do, I was mentally asking the divine for guidance. 
          
          Subsequently, the Brindavana Saranga Thillana started playing and the verse "Vrindavana Sanchara" hit my mind.  It's always a beautiful experience when the divine answers your prayers. Even magical when the response time is fast.
          
          
          - Shivaja

Peek-a-Boo! Here's a small natural flow after what the country has witnessed in the last 3 days. I've written this from a very generalized POV. 
          
          You can read it from the eyes of a martyred soldier of today's time, or particularly from the sons of Pandavas after the war. All to their Mothers!
          
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          My dearest Mother, why do I perceive rivers of tear droplets trickling against your dimples, soaked in the sable kohl that highlighted your shapely eyes and coursing down in the weight of intense despair? 
          
          Do you not remember that a streak of sorrow glimpsing your glorious face, shall strike me harshly than a thousand blows of Indra's Vajrayudha put together?
          
          Maa, do you reminisce about that beautiful evening when you made us all sit around you in an asymmetrical circle, and fondly fed us in the mouth like a Mumma-bird feeding its chicks? You had told us, the Sun spreads life to its planet-family. Dear Maa, you are equal to a million Suns! And, We — your proud Sons!
          
          Maa, You used to call me, your Moon! Why do you worry even a bit, when this Moon's first task at every dusk, is to watch your face! Isn't it easily possible from the skies?
          
          How blessed am I, to be sacrificed while uplifting your honor?!
          
          I am an anthem that sings your glory. Even if the song ends, it shall chant your fame in silence!
          
          May I eternally long, to belong to you! Forever and beyond, I always am yours, and nothing more!
          
          I am nowhere, but just within the slightest curve of your joyful smile! Please, never kick me away, with this melancholy!
          
          - Shivaja 
          December 12, 2021 — 11:21 PM
          
          
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          Wrote something after a very long time (❁´◡`❁)

~Important Note~
          
          Hello darlo! 
          
          I shall be going on a break again. No idea if I should return and post my works here. 
          
          I don't seriously find this platform a productive one anymore. It has more or less become an arena of petty cat-fights. And, it has given me extravagantly unwanted mental health problems, that I have never opened-up to anyone.
          
          Except absolutely only one person, no one came off to my support. Thanks to that God-sent good soul. While, I had always shouted like a creep for the issues faced by many. Thanks to you who simply left me all alone, for teaching me to stand on my own foot. 
          
          
          Ofc, work and health are wise choices compared to being online here. I know a few would miss me. Those lovelies can always find me on my instagram handle.
          
          Beyond all that, I am planning to slowly take backup of all my work and unpublish all my books from here. IK wattpad isn't the real arena for publishing time-consuming original content. I have contacted a very popular publishing house and they find me like a treasure. I feel, I belong there; Absolutely not where I am demeaned. 
          
          Also, I have no interest in arguing with anyone about their beliefs and putting all my energy in enlightening them. If you hold a belief - Okay! You too exist, and I have no problem with you breathing the same air as me.
          
          I hope you would no longer be hearing from this account and you are free to unfollow.
          
          Best of all lucks to each one of you!
          
          Regards,
          Shivaja

Thanks for the follow ❤

I have taken down 'The Diadem of Shiva'. That's mainly because I and the co-author @IamMadhumitha are presently caught up tight with our work life, and could not allow much time into writing that story.
          
          We anticipate to work on the plot and bring it out as a published book, rather than on Wattpad. And, that's gonna take another 5 years unquestionably. 
          
          Do pay your farewell to the book, so that it can come back with a great stunt in the real battlegrounds.
          
          - Shivaja (along with @IamMadhumitha)

Jambavati sets her eyes on Krishna (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧
          
          Here's the Janmashtami special as well as, the third installment of 'The Ballad of Jambavati'.
          
          Stay tuned, two more chapters shall be following soon..!
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/191010491

"I spun around vehemently, borrowing the art from my mount — The snowy Owl,
          
          Only to get splashed by the gurgling joy of the milky ocean, ringing through my soul,
          
          Recreating the heavenly visions of ParamaPadaNilayam, like impromptu streaks of lightning;
          
          Our home isn't a specific spot; It is here, there, and everywhere, where He and I are together!"
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          Happy Janmashtami All..! 
          
          Stay tuned to witness the impressive Keshava's handsomeness from his Lakshmi's eyes!
          
          The next part of 'The Ballad of Jambavati' is coming sooooon!

Psssst! Avasara 2 is up. This time, with a collage & poetry contest. Get yourself geared up and checkout @KrishnaPremikaBhava

Krishna swoons at his Chanchala!
          
          I've weaved words implicating the different forms of Lakshmi as one. Really loved the streak of expressions as they come to me. 
          
          Let's see if you can find each one with their indirect indications 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/191010491

An ode to my dearest mother Jambavati..! 
          A new poetry series is up! 
          
          For your kind attention @KrishnaArpan
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/story/191010491