Maybe one day I'll wake up pretending this never happened. Like it was all in my head. As if this fear I have was just a figment of my imagination and I'll become a real adult doing what real adults do. Sadly this isn't a dream. Trust me I've hurt, scared, and pinched myself to many times. I have to live with this, this fear and judgment my whole life. "Why?" you may ask honestly I don't know. With most studies I've researched the reason I have this could be a number of reasons or just a mixture of all of them.