Finley-0ut-G4mb1ing
Hey, hru today?
Shoyo1507
@Finley-0ut-G4mb1ing I'm doing a little better now. Thank you for asking. How about you? Are you doing ok today?
Shoyo1507
Cryingrainbows2025
Oh honey…
I just read your bio. I’m so sorry…you deserve better. Don’t give up! Writing can be your reason to live even. Even my fics if you want, find something. I want you here, you seem so sweet and this world doesn’t need to loose any more angels.❤️
(we are the same age btw lol)
Shoyo1507
@Cryingrainbows2025 I'll try. Also, yayy, same age friend! I don't have many of those, so thank you!
Shoyo1507
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Fuck life.
Why does it matter? We're all gonna die anyways. I mean, since when did anything help? I know you guys hurt. I know it's worse than mine. I'm sorry to everyone out there who's been hurting for so damn long all because of someone. Doesn't matter who.
I give up. If I'm giving up, at least I tried. Like I always fucking do.
Sl33pd3pr1v3dS1mp
Hi hunny, it's been a week.
I wanted to check up on you.
Apart from your sister and relapsing, how are you doing? Emotionally, mentally, and physically?
If you haven't heard it this week, I love you and Jesus loves you more <3
Sl33pd3pr1v3dS1mp
@Shoyo1507 I understand. I've been praying for you! I am doing great, thank you for asking! I'm going to check out some puppies today. Hopefully, I'll also be able to get my drivers course done this week!
Shoyo1507
I'm worried for everyone here.
Please, everyone stay safe. I don't know what's going on, but please..
Shoyo1507
Well, I just lost my clean streak. Back to square one now.
Shoyo1507
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Great. I fucked up yesterday.
I did it. I really did. I hit my sisters just because they pissed me off.
I'm turning into the very thing I wanted to avoid.
I'm ruining everything. She probably hates me now. But then again, what's not to hate?
Sl33pd3pr1v3dS1mp
@Shoyo1507 Don't turn away from it and beat yourself up. It'll cause more confusion and hatred for yourself. Own it. Tell her you're sorry and what you did was wrong. Explain, calmly, why you were feeling the way you did and ask for forgiveness. You'll get nowhere without communication. If she doesn't forgive you, say okay and you hope one day she will. Because then you would have done your part and it's not your fault if she doesn't forgive you. You did something to make it better. After all that, continue to refrain from blowing up at her and communicating that you need to be alone instead.
Shoyo1507
Mmm.
Hey guys
How do you do it?
Keep clean I mean.
And come out.
Yeah
I hide a lot
Not a lot from you guys.
You can ask me anything you want, I will do my best to answer
skrrrt_skrrt
hey sweetie. i’ve read some of your last updates here and…remember you can only save yourself. please, focus on helping yourself, i’m sure you can do it. and, i want to point out something for you, that could change your prospective a little bit. venting cause you to create poetry sometimes, or even prose. isn’t that amazing? you’re creating something beautiful from your pain. think about it, i feel like that could slightly change your prospective on yourself. even if you’re feeling bad, you’re still creating amazing things. you’re strong, you’re able to create positive and beautiful things and you deserve the world! take care, i’ll be here if you need some help <3
Shoyo1507
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Fuck.
How great.
How did I just realised my sister will hit herself if she gets upset? How.
She's fucking seven! How the hell do you traumatised a kid to the point they'll start doing that?!
I can already tell she wants to die too! How the hell am I supposed to help her now?! I wanted to protect them, not ensure they're traumatised before being a teenager! Why is this happening? Why why why why why why!