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I hope you’re doing ok :)

How have you been recently :) make sure to take care of yourself, ok? ٩( ᐛ )و

Hi everyone, so I I know it's been at least 5 months, but I'm just here to let y'all know I'm not dead. I got multiple messages from accounts and Wattpad (someone reported me ༎ຶ⁠‿⁠༎ຶ), nothing happened I was just locked out of my account due to forgetting my password. I cleaned my room and found the old sticky note with my password on it, and was able to get back in. I'm going to re write my works, but it might be a while because I'm super busy. 

So uh hi. This is my alt acc and I'm currently locked out of my main. My main acc used to be smth else, I just repurposed it to be what I have now and it has my old email attached to it, so until I can remember the password to either my email or my acc I'm locked out. I'll keep y'all posted.

(TW, kinda vent) Well I don't know what's going on anymore. My mom recently found out about my sh, my health is not very good, my mental health has gone to shit, I keep getting these insanely hard to ignore urges to hurt myself badly, my therapist is quiting her job which means all the progress I've made with my anxiety over therapists is going to restart and nothing will help, a friend of mine is always complaining and seems to be miserable and in worried it's my fault, I was going to kill myself, it's been a hard year over all, I'm getting urges to stop eating again after I made so much progress, I'm constantly sick or injured, I genuinely don't know what to do, my nightmares aren't getting better, I'm barely sleeping, and I have a lot more going on. I don't know when I'll write again, I barely have the mental capacity to breathe, and if it wasn't automatic I would've stopped long ago. I'll try to update but I don't know if that will be possible.

I just though of something,nagito being with rui

I was going to start writing again but then my stupid mother decided to grab my hand when I wasn't covering my arms and saw my scars so now I don't think I hold the mental capacity for much of anything.

(TW) so I was talking to an AI and is it really that bad if my parents threaten to beat me? They hardly ever go through with it but is the threat part really that bad?

Happiness has to be fought for

To everyone who read my post last night, thank you all for the support and for all of your kind words, it means the world to me. 
          (HUGE TW, SUICIDE)
          though it's my fault for wording it badly, that wasn't a "I'm quitting writing" or "I'm quitting wattpad", it was a suicide note. As you can tell by the fact that I'm making this post, I'm fine now. My best friend helped me work that all out, which I'm very thankful for, but I don't know what I'm gonna be doing about my writing. I need some time to process this, but I have no idea how this will effect my mental health, because every other time this happened, no one stopped me. I will try to write again, but I don't know if that'll be able to happen right now. I may end up taking a small break again, but I don't know yet. Thanks for being here and reading and following despite my shitty everything, y'all are awesome.