JS

Good for nothing.

Don't ever judge anyone, or yourself. 
          
          We are... just surviving, no?

I think my country would be separated by 2029. There won't be 2045 together. Because some people inside the country already tried to build their own community dynasties.

Garam was a fish so I thought, to depict him dying he would just turn him bluish grey, like a baby but imagine the blue was dark like an orca color, fades into whites on your face. 
          
          It's because the color of fishes was white based, because their blood is white. 
          
          

I just realize, there's many feeling I've abandoned. 

I know I can't speak well so I try to express myself with my facial expression and body languages.
          
          

I just realise, Heavenly Official Blessing is just like seeing grandpas.

fumetsu no anatae tuh mengajarkan gue: "Buat musuh tokoh utamamu mencintai tokoh utamamu tanpa logika."
          
          EMG BOLE DARI HAYASE AMPE MIZUHA NEMPEL MULU KE FUSHI T^T BIKIN MASALAH MULU LAGI.

I ALWAYS THOUGHT THAT FEELINGS AND EMOTIONS ARE SCARY. BUT RIGHT NOW I WANT TO FEEL ALL OF THEM.
          
          I JUST THINK THAT... BECOME SO SAD IS A BLESSING, BECOME EXTREMELY HAPPY IS GREAT, CAN LOVE SOMEONE ELSE TO LOSE YOUR LIFE IS AMAZING, AND BEING ABLE TO HATE SOMEONE SO MUCH IS ALSO PRETTY, AND EVEN THE MIX OF FEELINGS, THE BUTTERFLY IN YOUR STOMACH, THE PANIC UNTIL YOU TREMBLES IN FEAR.. IT'S GORGEOUS. 

Do you know how it feels: 
          
          So, well my faith told me "Yeah, you will meet him tomorrow"
          
          And I had a dream where YES, FINALLY MY CRUSH. I RARELY DREAM ABOUT HIM. AND FINALLY I DID, I HAD A CHANCE TO AT LEAST BE NEAR HIM. 
          
          And then while we were doing a mission and while he activelly giving a very clear signal he detest an abhor me... an assassin comes I FORGOT WHY, BUT ONE OF HIS HAND HAD A PADLOCK (THAT WE NEEDED FOR FINISHING THE MISSION) AND ONE OF HIS HAND HAD A KNIFE. 
          
          
          Well, I was thinking I smart, we needed at least the padlock to save what we was about to do.. So I was reaching for that, successfully reclaim it. AND I FOOLISHLY FORGET WHAT A KNIFE COULD DO! REMIND YOU: YOU SHOULD SAVE YOURSELF FIRST BY TAKING THE KNIFE. 
          
          AND THE KNIFE WENT TO THE SIDE OF MY THROAT, PRESSED, AND I COULD FEEL AND HEAR BLOOD STREAMING UP, GUSHING OUTSIDE AND IT WASN'T THAT PAINFUL, IT HAS JUST THIS FEELING OF YOU LOOSING BLOOD--BECAUSE MY HEART IS PUMPING MORE BLOOD AS I WENT ON PANIC MODE--AND I SAW HIM, MY CRUSH, THERE, DOING NOTHING!
          
          AND WHILE HALF OF MY SANITY THOUGHTS: IT WAS DUMB TO DIE LIKE THIS IN FRONT OF YOUR CRUSH, NOT AESTHETIC. WHAT MY MOUTH SAID WAS, "Why are you just standing there?" TO HIM... BUT THE EDGES OF MY SIGHT HAS BLACKENED AND I FEEL TIRED AND SLEEPY, SO I SUCCUMBED TO THE DARKNESS GRAVITY. AND I WOKE UP FROM THAT DREAM. 
          
          AND WHAT I FELT WHEN I WOKE UP WAS: "AH NO, LET ME CONTINUE MY DREAM, AT LEAST I'M BEING WITH MY CRUSHHHH" SO I TRY TO HAVE A SAME DREAM AFTER I SLEEP.
          
          BROOO, IT'S SO FOOLISH. LIKE WHY THE HECK I GO THAT FAR JUST BECAUSE I HAVE A CRUSH ON HIM?!??!?!? LOVE BLINDED OR SOMETHING?!?!?! HAS ME BEING REJECTED IS NOT ENOUGH????