@Shumai_Simp
My grandmother keeps referring to female friends as girlfriends and my gay self is having trouble containing myself and she asked what I was into and I almost said 'girls'
And she is triggering my gender dysphoria by saying I'm a girl and I'm not ahhhhhhhhhhhhh
Pt. 2
But then I indulge too much and now it's boring but nothing else captured my attention that much and I just need you to last untill I can find a different thing but now I'm sad and just dont have any energy to do anything-
Cycle repeat
And I started a project that I thought would be amazing but then I stopped because I was about to pass put
Then I couldnt continue-
I just was not into it anymore
I also will just lose minutes of my life
Not in the sense of like I wasted time doing things that dont matter but literally it will be one second its 3:10 and the next it 3:20
I was lost in thought but what was I thinking about, was I moving??? Who knows
But that dont line up with my inability to sit still for more than 5 minutes
My need for sensory
I need to listen to something
I know I'm trying to focus on something and it needs to be quite but I need sound
I need to eat
I know I'm not hungry and will probably get sick to my stomach but I need taste
I need to fidget with my hair
I know you said the fall outs are gross but its feels nice and I need to fidget
Oh but when I'm trying to focus theres no winning
Its ethire too loud or too quite
My leg bounce
The fact I can never read any situation
How should I react??? Should i go all the way or no??? You need to give me more ques or I'm just not going to react out of fear I'll be judged
And my tendencie to lose stuff or just forget
I put this here where is it?!?!
What did I just eat?!?!
But then of course I can remember something from years ago that doesn't matter
Oh yeah I remember that time when I was 4 and got really mad at you
Oh what was the homework/vocab?
Heck if I know
Stories usually have side stories that dont make sense
And with fanfic if it has more than 5000 words i avoid it. Slow burns are awful.
I had more but cant remember soo
:/
Anyway do you think I have a problem or am I just over reacting
I'm so confused right now- pt.1
Yall think you can help an enby out??
Like my rooms a mess and I know I should clean it but I just cant???? Like I could I'm physically able to but every time I try to get it done I just get so tried and bored and (more) easily distracted
And I have homework but I just cant
And yet for what ever gosh darn reason I can get so focused on things like danganronpa and Aot and spend hours just trying to indulge as much content as possible non stop