I've been gone for ages, I know.
Although I no longer write stories here, I wanted to come back and share my love for this band one last time.
The news of Liam's passing has been devastating to me. Only an hour before the news dropped, I had been talking to my chiropractor about one direction, which I don't often talk about anymore. Looking back it was like I got to reminisce my love for them one last time without feeling grief.
I have loved the boys since 2010. I have never stopped supporting them in their solo careers. I will always hold the most special place in my heart for them.
Liam, sweet angel, I am so glad to have been able to share some of this life with you. I am thankful you shared your love so openly. I will always cherish every memory of you. Your kind heart will never be forgotten. You were so loved in this life, and you will continue to be loved as the world keeps moving.
It's been so hard without you here. I never thought it was even imaginable to live in a world where one of you boys is gone, and now that it's reality I'm not sure how to face it. My grief has been coming in waves of sadness and denial. Sometimes even anger.
I wish you were still with us, but fate had another plan. I hope you're singing loud up there and dancing to your hearts content.
I got your arrows tattooed on my wrist, as a symbol to never stop going. To always look to the future.
I'm gutted to be saying goodbye to you, Liam. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined to be writing this so young, not even turned 20 yet. But life works in strange ways.
I know you're watching over us all, and keeping is safe and protected.
I miss you so terribly. I will love you always.
Rest peacefully darling
xx S
