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It’s been quite a while and I did another disappearance. I do apologize, but I almost failed this school year (and still am at risk of it). I could barely spare time for recreation between school, homework, etc., but I still forced myself to RP and keep quiet about whenever I wanted to do something else, which wasn’t fair to those I was RPing with. I enjoyed the RPs, yes, but at that period of time, I felt as if I was obligated (no one is to blame for this, I just have a messed up way of thinking that causes this) to reply in RP, and that caused me to drift again. I’m back now though and have learnt when to tell people that I’m mentally drained or just don’t want to RP at the moment. Sorry for ghosting y’all for… way too long.

Alright, so a few things. For a while (since before my return), I thought the only reason why I was so hesitant to come back were the ones I previously listed, but now thinking on it, it’s so much more. First of all, as I’ve grown, I’ve subconsciously/consciously realized things about shows I loved and wrote about here (Meliodas and Elizabeth, for example, have a… kind of messed up dynamic). Second of all, I realized that I am not a girl over my break, but ALL of my reader characters/main RP OCs that I wrote about/RPed were girls. That’s painful to go back to after finally getting that fresh air of being able to be me. I physically can’t bring myself to play or write characters that were made to be who I WANTED TO BE as a girl because of a lot of things. Third, a lot of my fanfics didn’t actually even have genuine stories, the only one that did was the most recent redo of my Fairy Tail fanfic, which is the only one that I feel comfortable continuing as is. So, basically, moving forwards, I’m going to either restart or discontinue most of my fanfics and remake/revamp/replace my RP characters.
          
          Side note though, I HAVE MORE FREE TIME BECAUSE MY MARCHING BAND SEASON ENDED AND WE BECAME GRAND CHAMPIONS OF OUR CLASS! I will be replying first to my most recent RP buddy, but I will begin replying to other RPs after, sorry for the weird wait and such, I’m really slow at realizing things.

HEY EVERYONE! So, today I am officially coming back to Wattpad! Those who wanna RP can simply message me here and I’ll respond after I finish my homework! I’m excited to be back!

So, for the secondary, and lighter parts of my announcement.
          - I will not be RPing on Wattpad again for right now, but to those who wait to after I’m up for it again, feel free to message me and give me a rundown of the story idea, you character, and your boundaries, in and out of RP. Preferred pronouns are also appreciated to be mentioned with that.
          - In regards to writing, I won’t be writing any fully serious story things (unless if I have a spark of creativity), but I’d be happy to take requests. I might or might not write them, but it would be really sweet to just hear what others like to read about.
          - Finally, I want to post a safe space. A space for people to ask advice, rant about problems, share things they enjoy, share random thoughts, talk about just anything they need to while also being in just a safe space, etc.
          
          So, how’d you all feel about these ideas? I know they may not be what you all followed me for, but I think we all need some feel good stuff right now.

Wattpad just deleted a huge sentimental announcement of mine, so here’s the rundown.
          
          I owe a lot of y’all an explanation as to why I’ve just disappeared. Main part, mental association towards Wattpad with the stress of forcing myself to do things out of fear of hurting other people’s feelings. Started about two years ago and slowly began to pile up. To the person who I ghosted completely in private messages, I’m truly sorry, you are amazing and I wish that RPed with you more and actually took the time to discuss how I felt about some things and established proper boundaries. But, I didn’t, and I regret that, because I didn’t just hurt myself, I brought you down with me. I know I couldn’t truly do much, especially since I didn’t know how to properly cope with things back then, but again, I’m sorry.
          
          In a few months, if I’m feeling up to it, I’ll try to fully return, but until then, I have a few plans for the waiting period of that, which I’ll announce separately. Again, I’m sorry that I just disappeared.

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