Victoria

Busy with school and it's aweful. :P Sorrry I haven't been on for a while, not that I've been missed! xD Haha. 

@Belieber179  ah, I see, my problem was just people all together. I think It's great you can talk to people, even if you can't to adults. Just believe in yourself. I know it's probably cheesy, sometimes you need cheesy. I believe you can do it. I'll cross my fingers that you will! I just preformed my first play, I cried when it was over. I think that was the last of this S.M. monster shadowing over me. All my sisters got me flowers and my brothers hugged me. I did that last night. I can't believe I did it. You'll have no idea how much it means to accomplish something so hard until you do it. When you do, I'll be so proud of you, because I know how much this means. I believe that you can do this! You can! And when you do, I hope people realize what an amazing person you can be. 
          

When I say reason I mean like I feel I have it because once I conquer it, I have the strength to be something. I want to be known and I think beating this will help me with that. I'm getting frustrated lately but not at myself I'm tired of living under a mask. I feel like nobody besides my close family knows me.(I think I just found a positive thing...I'm halfway through it, I just don't talk to adults...I'll scream, talk, or freak on somebody my age, but I'm noticing that I'm gradually getting quieter but I will change that)

I'm told that sooo often, I know I have to think positive and I always do but it's like the S.M is controlling me and it's like it's telling me I can't do anything with my life. I'm really tired of that, it's the stupidest disorder and nobody deserves it but I sort-of believe that I have this disease for some sort of reason. You probably understand what I mean right?

@Belieber179 honestly, I just believed in myself. I knew It had to happen, I WANTED it to happen. You just need to think about all the positive things about it, I mean it's life-changing. Do not focus on the negatives! You'll just end up backing out. Give yourself a push. Don;t force yourself to say a whole sentence if you can't. I won't lie, I cried after 
          I spoke out loud.

Well can you tell me what you did? Because I think that all I need right now is inspiration. I have the stubborn-ness and I guess I'm just clueless at what to do next

@Belieber179 awe! I've recently overcome my S.M. all by myself. I'm proud, in fact I'm in a play at my school. If you have anything you want to ask just tell me. :) Sorry for responding so late.

Please keep writing! (I have Selective Mutism too)

Okay, I admit I've been procrastinating.. a lot. But I've been making notes every time I have an idea for a part of my story. I haven't written very much for my next chapter but I hope to finish this next chapter in two days.

Have to model for photography today. Ugh. No writing will get done. D: