SilentNatureWriter
༆˖࣪ Good Morning/Afternoon/Evening! ༆˖࣪
I am very proud to announce that I am editing my one book, "The Butterflies" and focusing on not just my past, but recent events that have happened and kinda might still be happening.
It is a very bold move of me to even express my book the way I am, I am exposing myself to probably get ridiculed for it, but the book isn't made for you, it's made for me, but I am allowing you all to read it.
The other factor is it could stir up the waters. I'm not trying to do this by any means, but if it does I'm just going to ignore what happens.
My experiences are my experiences and if people don't like it, don't read the book or don't bother to even be on my account.
Plus I'm the only person who knows exactly who I am. Texts do not define my personality or who I am as a person. People need to stop assuming by texts that that's who I am or something of the sorts.
Yes, there are things that I have said are true, but does those things define me as something as shameful to call someone a sl*t for an addiction I have?
Absolutely not.
I am a person. I have problems just like the next person does. But it does not give a person a right, at all, to give out personal information such as that and plater it, without permission, to post it to millions of people.
But it was done to shame me, amongst other things. But the thing that really bothers me is the fact that these people overstepped, invaded my privacy, and broke boundaries just to post about my addiction and basically saying I'm just some sl*t that only wants that out of a relationship.
No, it's not. It's called a s*x addiction for a reason. It's a disorder. One of the many I have, but that one I have the most struggle with.
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That disorder has ended 95% of my relationships. Mostly because the person couldn't understand my addiction/disorder.
Am I proud of it? Hell no. Do I want help for it? Of course!
But can I get the help?
No. Because it costs an ungodly amount of money, that I don't have, to go to therapy for it.
Have I even tried to make changes or even seem to want the help?
Both yes and no. I sometimes feel the need that I don't need the help, simply because I am a very independent, forced independent, person. So I naturally think I can do everything by myself, even fix myself with something as deep as that.
But other times, yes I wish I could have help. But I just don't have the needs to get it, yet.
Either or, my point is, my book detailing a lot of what has happened in the past and what has happened since August to now.
So that is why this book I'm writing is very heavily important to me. So important that I have been trying to enter it in awards in hopes I can better improve the quality of the book.
I'm so excited about this book and it really does help me to just....say everything and anything and get all my bottled up emotions out of me. It really does help me have closure with myself and it does heal old and some new wounds, and even helps with lifting a lot of weight off my shoulders.
I am very sorry for the rant, but I just needed to say some stuff and get points across.
Thank you.
~Rissi
