Dear best friend,
i hope that you're good. since you've been gone it has not been easy. i miss you every day, but i want to say thank you. thank you for everything. for spending your free time with me. teach me, like me, love me, inspire me. i don't know what i'm going to do now, without you. you're gone and i'm here. i should write something like it long time ago, but i didn't know how. it's already ten months when you're gone and i still can't handle it all. did you see me? i don't know where you are but i hope that you're ok. i hope that you are proud of me and what i made. maybe it isn't much but i did it. i'm still alive. i'm still here and i'm alive without you. and i have no idea how it happend. i though that is not possible. but i did it. i wish you were here with me and my mom. but you did what you did and i can't put the clock back. unfortunately. i miss you so much. do you remember when i jump on your back i said 'don't let me go'. and then you said 'never'. that was two years ago. and you fulfil a promise. i love you so much and i let you leave me. how could you do this? when you had a trouble i always was talking with my mom. and now?! you didn't do anything. i though you trust her. don't you? of couse i'm not mad. i stopped be mad a long time ago. i'm just in pain. i need you to back to normality. to back to live in hundred percent. please come back to me.