My final message: The universe is massive and infinite. Think about that and realize it. Don't just agree, actually realize that when you reach the "edge" of the universe, there is more darkness. Aka, more universe. We are extremely small in this universe. Everything around us is old and massive. We do not matter. Once you realize this, it's as if you gain 100 years of knowledge. You stop caring because no matter what you do, nothing will ever change. The timeline of the universe is a giant boulder rolling and we are an ant standing in front of it. No matter how hard we take out stance in front of it, the boulder will only run over us in the same speed without slowing. All we ever see is a part of the boulder. I now see the whole thing rolling and I realize it won't be stopped. Friends say I had an ego death. Maybe so but all it did was made me realize the truth. Good luck.