Silly Celestial Child

I've posted a new part to Silly Shenanigans. It's a weirdcore/traumacore thread. Vv short but it's there. I'll be making a small list of songs for people to listen to aswell so stsy tuned! :) 

Hey my state "opens" up again on Monday! We're still advised to do social distancing and stay indoors if we can help it but we're able to leave home and go hangout with friends and stuff.
            I feel like my schedule isn't gonna change much but I'm definitely gonna hang out with my friends. I hope everyone is still remembering to wash your hands as often as possible, not touching your face in public and don't kiss/hold hands with people you aren't qurantined with.
          
           This quarantine has done a number on my mental health but I'm pulling through just as much as anybody else it. I had multiple ptsd related panic attacks but I'm pulling through. Everybody stay safe and let me know how you're doing!!!!

@D3AR-STAR-BOY ye :(

@D3AR-STAR-BOY everybody changed their @‘s so all of the thingies were wrong

YOU

I was bored and talking to Ryder when I realized I would like to have pierced ears again!! I talked to my mom about this every now and then and she said when her ears would close up when she was younger she would just push earrings through. So I sterilized my earrings, cleaned my ears and put on spare gloves from my hair dye box and pierced my ears again!!! I'm pretty happy about it so I guess that's something nice about my weekend  so far. I hope you guys are having a nice start to your weekend, too! <3

So I was slowly reintroducing myself back into wattpad and I saw something saying "everybody on wattpad is a bottom" and nO. 
          
          Don't ask for proof that I'm a top we don't talk about that but yeAh
          
           Not everybody on here is a bottom. 
          Not everybody on here is gay either.
           
          Don't assume y'all 
          
          It makes an ass out of u and me
          Ass u me, don't do it. 
          

Yall, I'm taking a break from most social media. That means Wattpad too. I just got a huge wave of slighty su***dal thoughts. haven't been su***dal since fifth grade. I just have had another shit week where I got harrassed. I also got news my grandmother, who has been in hospice for the past few months, has less than a week left. She doesn't want anybody visting her because she doesn't want anybody seeing her like that. The Last time I saw her was July 4th, 2015. I asked my mom if I can text her somehow but she apparently doesn't answer her Facebook messenger and that's honestly my only mode of communication, really. How convenient. I'm just in such a bad place and I hate to bring that negative energy here. I've been getting so many signals from people that are giving me the vibe that I'm not doing enough. That I'M not enough. When in reality I really AM trying. I really truly am trying to push past this pain of insignificance. But nothing is really helping. I'm trying to push more negative things out my life and wattpad can be a huge source for that; so I'm logging off until I deem myself better. Goodbye babes. I'll see yall when I'm a bit happier. :)

Uggghhh I hate mood swings (not associated with my cycle. The one's that come with Depression.) Especially the ones that make me wanna be a bitch for NO reason. Like if somebody goes "hh, I'm real sad" I lowkey wanna say "good."  This is what happens when you sleep in and miss your Emotional Support group, folks.

Cheese brain