Sillyshygirl25

It’s my birthday today, I was 23 when I started writing on this app with so much mental health issues and now I’m 28 still dealing with new trauma from my ex but much more calmer with life. 

Posted new poetry on my book, the poem seventeenth bell is about my exes verdict and what I went through, it’s this week on my bday will be the day where I hope I will get my justice 

Should I make a poetry book about myself? 

This woman is crazy she’s watching my page am content even though I unfriended her. I’m healing rn and I don’t need her. 

Why in the hell am I still in love with Lilly?? Why do I love my abuser why do I miss her scent? Why do I miss her voice, her lips and her hugs? This hurts so much because I LOVE HER!! But I keep telling myself she discarded me for Rosie, she used me for my money, she married me and controlled me. I lost friends because of her all she did was block my friends off my phone. Why make me look crazy?? I was healed and when I went into this relationship I never ever showed jealousy nor insecurity and if I did I would talk about it. I feel like I’m losing my mind I lost who I am. Three years of my life fighting for someone who does not exists and worst of all I was faced with the truth her friends were all fake to me even on the court date for the restraining order she used a mutual friend of ours against me when she was never in the bedroom to see Lilly throw a punch at my face and left me with a black eye just because I wanted to get my own water and she wanted me to stay in the bedroom while everyone was outside at the party. I ran out bleeding and barefoot calling 911 and looking like a horror movie all bloody and crying I kept saying. “ please believe me to the cops and ambulance workers” I was so deep into my own mind thinking this was all my fault. Why can’t I just freaking be cold!!! Who cares at this point. 

I’m not going to be on here for  while and when I come back I’m changing my profile again. All I can say is I’m getting a divorce because of abuse I have a restraining order on my soon to be wife for domestic violence. She blocked my friends that I loved so much for no reason making me look bad, making me feel toxic one when she was and on top of that I got beaten and I ran out of that house bloody and barefoot calling for help just because I wanted water please pray for justice please believe me. I’m living with my parents and all I want to say is sorry sorry for believing someone I loved yet suffered so much abuse. I will never believe in love again. Never go back to who hurt you and if you don’t believe me I don’t care I spent three years of my life living a lie. Living with a true covert narcissist who used me for money, sex and torture. I’m living with my parents just focusing on my mental health. Go to my tiktok go to my Instagram @dreamydebs98 if you want to talk to me.  I don’t hate you Lilly, I still love you but I can’t keep having black eyes and bruises and lies to me she started with yelling at me like I’m a cheater and blocked everyone without me knowing yet she cheated on me. Love is not real. Fuck love. 

I need to write something and I’m high rn but I need a one shot to write about 

Hey guys, it’s been a little bit of a while since I’ve been on here, so turns out the girl didn’t like me and just wanted to take information from me to no more about my wife because she likes my wife, but at the end of the day she hurt my wife’s feelings yesterday by embarrassing, her saying that she cheats on her with somebody else but yet I posted pictures of my wife and she also posted pictures of dates between my wife and her and then all of a sudden she gets upset start saying these things and she said in front of my wife’s client on the phone, which embarrassed her so much and that pissed me off, so yeah, I was played by a girl that said she liked me, but she didn’t end. This made me agitated, but at the end of the day. I choose myself over anybody. And that’s the update. Also, this might be a lot of information because I smoked some grass.. anyways the new font or whatever they updated on this app is phenomenal. All right. I’m going. Peace out. -Debs

Omg THE GIRL KISSED ME!!! I was kissing the girl and my wife was kissing her too and I like her and with time I want to ask her to be my gf I’ve never done this before but I really enjoyed it. 

Why do masculine woman are attracted to me??? I’m a masc myself and I love femmes but this woman told my wife she wants to kiss me when we go for ice cream on Sunday.
          
          
          What should I even do??