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I have Instagram now if anyone wants to follow me it’s dreamydebs98. I will be posting cooking pictures and random ones too. I’m still working with myself and dealing with a lot. Hope everyone is okay, I’m not going to be in the app maybe till next year. 
          
          Stay safe everyone 
          
          ❤️Debs

Im alive and single I broke up with my girlfriend on Friday cuz I could not take any more of the insults and the way she treated me with the disrespect. Today I’ll be picking up my things from her place and what’s worse then that is I had to break my heart and tell her that I don’t love her anymore. It’s crazy too she does not want anyone coming with me to pick up my things or else she will call the cops, I’ve stuck around for love but I ended up being tired taking care of the puppy, cooking and cleaning and the puppy would attack me and she did nothing to help. There was never compassion on her end. Lesson learned love is not everything is loyalty and respect too. 

I hate jinxing myself I’m going to talk to my therapist on Friday I don’t know if I’m happy or not. I love my girlfriend but she does not understand me nor understand how I’m feeling. 
          
          I’m a masc but I’m still a woman but to her I’m the man meaning I don’t get flowers and I should be the one doing all the hard work which is fine but then says I have to kill bugs for her which I have. She told me to choose either I’m a masc or a femme I told her over and over I’m a masc but that does not mean I’m trans. I’m a woman that’s towards my masculine side but I still love colors!!
          
          She gets mad at me when I sleep and she wants to do the dirty after a long day of work and doing my two jobs I want to sleep and all she things about is that. She’s rough and I’ve been getting sensitive skin for some reason and she’s not respecting me when I say NO! 
          
          She kicks me out of the room when we fight but then tells me to go to her and ask her how do we fix this and when I did she does not care.
          
          My therapy says that she might not know what love is. She’s rude and mean to me and I’m working hard. When I say how I feel it’s always a problem. All I want is to be loved and how I love myself now then before I would never treat myself this way and yet I’m still here by her side. 
          

Sweet pie, you have 888 views on your book named 'debs' 
          
          That's a number of GOD! Amazing, no?

I’m learning from my therapist to not become a people pleaser, it takes a lot of energy out of me and it makes my depression worse. My girlfriend got a tongue piercing and I’ve been taking care of her, cooking everyday with my heart all for her, I’ve been on top of things. I don’t realize that I’m doing the people pleasing until I feel tired and don’t want to go out nor eat and my depression hits. My therapist tells me that if I want to stay in bed all day then I should if I want to eat candy then go ahead and not restrict myself or overwork myself because she knows that I know my limits. Right now I’m alone in my car parked near a nice area where the sun is shining and just enjoying this time. My gf went out first leaving me alone at home even when I asked her where we were going to go but she wanted to go by herself. I felt like she was mad at me for something but I stopped myself and I said to myself “I am not the problem.” But I’m just tired now. Also recovering from a hangover yeah no fun. 

New. book posted I hope everyone enjoys
          Have a wonderful day/ night
          
          Debs

New life update 
          
          https://www.wattpad.com/1442569434?utm_source=ios&utm_medium=link&utm_content=share_writing&wp_page=create_writer&wp_uname=Sillyshygirl25

Hello debs, I'm back not sure if you remember but it's me ciely. Can't open my past accounts:) missed you so much I hope you're doing well!! xxxx

Don't let your chance to live end like this. You deserve to live to your fullest. I tell Ruby all the time that she deserves to live, my dms are open to chat. Talk to me whenever you need to vent.

Ahh! I haven't spoken with you in a long time, hry?