@SilverStorm8
Every time I come up with a story idea, the more I realize how lonely I am. Yea, I have Moonie, and occasionally FoulEncoder and Nightmare, but that’s just 3 people. ……….fuuuuuuuuck,
Still more friends than I had in most my life though
Faaaaaaaaaaaaaah. I just checked and 9k+ words and the chapter has been sitting on the halfway point of the episode, this is including any custom scenes I have in it but still
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Let it be known that the next httyd RtP chapter has been sitting at 9k words for like 3 or more months. I’m honestly disappointed in myself for that. For all I know it could be finished but I got ambitious and wanted 2 episodes in one chapter. I need to read through it. Pain, because the only way I’ll fully process every word I wrote is if I listen to it with audio
You do you.
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I should probably start addressing the fact that I haven’t updated my stories in a long time. I think I got my first case of writers block, which while it started out as something minor, grew when I got depressed, mixed with other things like my eyes getting worse. But I have started writing again since the end of last month? Or the beginning? I can’t remember. But it’s not the next chapter for Httyd RtP or me releasing the rewrite for my Ninjago fic, but it will be a one shot (temporarily because I should not be focusing on two different stories so often) for a fandom I have never even glanced at on terms of me writing, and have seen only a few clips of, though I have read stories of the fandom.
I also have a job now and start this Monday so, I’m nervous about that
@SilverStorm8 Well, hope you feel better soon, and I wish you the best on your new job.
There’s no laws against the Pokémon Batman, I can modify them however I want! I’ve been given power, I’ve been given time, I’ve been granted more leeway than most and progress has finally been reignited
Ok, I will be severely disappointed if something happens that what I’m about to tell you about….. again.
I am feeling better, starting to at least. I’ve finished multiple segments in general recently, for both chapter 16 of Reborn through Plasma (RtP) and the rewrite of my Ninjago fic. As well as getting more done with the rewriting of the first chapter of RtP, there’s a chance that that will come out before chapter 16 unless I somehow add 30000 words… I just checked, whilst I know the doc includes every word, even the ones at the very top of the chapter, it’s already above 700 words compared to the original chapter’s 1.2k. And I’m really trying to keep it the same, it’s already so different from the original.
Wish me luck
Feel terrible again
……. I found the cause as to why I’ve been having trouble thinking of what to write and how to write it for my stories. It’s the same god damn medication that was messing with my eyes. My mom and dad take similar medications and it has apparently been giving my dad… darker thoughts for a day after he takes it, and making my mom depressed now that she’s not on it.
Do I really have to do this in parts?
@SilverStorm8 | I'd say you need a break, whether it's a day or two or up to a week or two. Sit with some tea/coffee and just stare out the window for 20-30 minutes. It helps me. I hope you feel better soon.
@SilverStorm8 No one is rushing you Silver, take as much time as you need. Most importantly, focus on yourself and your health first, take care, buddy.
And of course once the medication I originally took finally got out of my system (apparently it was a stronger dose form a different brand that caused it) my mom gives me a smaller dose of her medicine to help me with my… eating issue. I stopped it for a week and immediately started feeling a bit better, but still feeling side effects.
I basically have a mixture of both, of what my mom and dad have, I have to force myself to think (something very abnormal for me) and sometimes I just can’t do anything, I think the only reason I don’t feel depressed (or as depressed) like my mom is because the logical side of my mind (which has recently started to pretend to act like Shockwave to an extent) as stated how illogical it is. Though it doesn’t really stop the darker thoughts in high stress emotional moments
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It’s my birthday today!
That’s it. Idk what else to put here beyond that. Ok! I actually feel normal today! Like mind running at 1mil mph normal. My eyes aren’t burning more unless they get really watery and I touch them, my eyes feel fine, but I doubt my vision itself got better, but I’ll take what I can get at this point
@SilverStorm8 Happy birthday
@SilverStorm8 Happy Birthday, Silver, hope you have a wonderful day.