Kay so I know nobody ever really reads this stuff, so I'm just gonna say what I'm feeling and hope nobody I actually know reads it. I think I'm about to lose my mind. I genuinely feel like I'm going crazy. I may have just screwed things up with my best friend(MochiChan), and now I can't have the brother-sister relationship with her bf (who is awesome and is like the best big brother figure ever). Before that happened, I screwed things up with my best guy friend, who really wAs like my big brother. He hates me now. And rn I feel completely and totally psycho. My little sister likes to sleep in my room a lot, and while I was making myself food she came in my room and laid down on some blankets on the floor. When I came back, I internally freaked out and yelled and her to leave because part of me wanted to hurt her. I don't feel in control unless I get myself into this psycho bitch mindset. The best thing I can compare it with would be somethin like void stiles from teen wolf. I feel so unbalanced, like I'm on a tightrope and I'm going to fall, unless I'm feelin psycho. Idk what to do. Rn the best solutions I got are A) get someone to screw my brains out and hope it goes away for a bit and B) go to sleep and never wake up, which I haven't considered in a long time. Advice is welcomed, criticism is definitely deserved, and silence is fine. I hope everyone is doing much better than I am. May God be with you all.