Does everyone write for fun? Or for love of writing? I've never actually enjoyed writing. But drawing art and telling stories are the only things in this world I'd say I'm any good at, and both have taken years of practice to get to my current level today, which is still so amateur.
But I certainly can't write out of passion and excitement, I critique my own work so harshly that I can't go a few sentences without coming through the entire chapter to make sure it fits as it should, only to wonder by the end of that chapter if it's as good as I feel.
It's because of this that I've never managed to write more than a few chapters of anything even though I have a wealth of ideas, concepts, perspectives and themes that I would love to put on paper. The process of telling that story becomes so grueling and cumbersome that I usually get burned out.
I don't write because I love writing, I do because I'm a slave to my thoughts. I've never been any good at explaining myself or expressing my uniqueness through my voice but writing always made that easier, even right now I know I couldn't talk this out if I had to.
I'm at the 6th chapter in my story Incarnate and I'm writing a story with a title in still not even settled about. I have a general direction and theme for this story that I want to explore but as a novice writer I fall short in so many areas, I lack so much vital knowledge and at the root I just don't really like writing, but what else am I to do with all these ideas?
I really want to tell V's story. And I want to tell the story of queen of progress after that, but it's often so hard to write with so many trivial obstacles in my life and often I just want someone who likes what I do to share my ideas with.