Sorry guys.
I'm currently not in the most stable right now, currently trying to get my mental state helped by a psychiatrist, I'm just distraught, feeling hopless, forgettable, alone, I'm just, it's hard, it's very hard carrying all 10 years of depression, betrayal of one's I trust, and so many deaths of so many people I know and cared for, with nobody to even talk too, nobody to even cry on, nobody to vent too, in a sense I truly am alone. my shell is cracking, and I'm slowly losing touch of reality, while I see apparitions, Dark figures thats stalking me, constant night terrors, I'm just, gonna be less active for a few days ok, I'll be fine within a week probably.