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Today my mother called me disgusting because I haven’t been washing my hair lately she threatened to cut it and said that I stunk. It’s not the first time shes said something about how I don’t take care of my self and I don’t know what to do because it really made me spiral a bit i thought about jumping from a very high place but i didn’t because it wasn’t high enough. I don’t like who I am I care about nothing especially not my self i try to get passionate for something but I can’t I only care about my best friends lives and im trying to learn to love my sister because she’s not the monster i used to see her. I have no hobbies and I’m trying to stop sh I’ve been clean for a month. I really hate my personality because a lot off ppl hate me or dislike me and I try to be a people pleaser and a rebel at the same time but I end up looking like an idiot i Don’t know what my future is but I feel that if I continue I’ll end up on the streets. Im not productive and I'm not nice I hate the way I see people and I hate how I see myself I don’t know what to do. Im not gonna commit tho don’t worry I'm in no position to.

Name a pair of two characters that have nothing to do with each other cause I want to write a crack fic (I have a preference for yaoi but anything works)

I got a pc yippee!!!

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Update my mother said i could get a YouTube channel im so excited i have the will to live now and im happy

Im thinking bout starting a YouTube channel soon idk im worried cause my friend and I share one and i feel that it’s selfish of me to make on my own im gonna start posting over the summer if I decide to go through with it

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So I know of a community on tumblr that’s dedicated to smirking on every community post in every community if yall want to help them achieve this mission 
          
          https://www.tumblr.com/communities/smirkingincommunities

Another bad day

It’s currently 10 44 rn and I’m crying because I realizing that I don’t have a choice I have to do band next year and it driving me insane because I told my mom that I genuinely hated band and that I’ve been hiding my true thoughts I don’t like how suffocating it feels and how forced it makes me feel but my mom doesn’t understand she isn’t see what it’s doing to my mental state 
          I would be posting this on my main account but I feel if I do my band friends who has my main would think of me differently and It scares me of the backlash I would get if I do leave band, but I still told my mom that I didn’t like band because the backlash felt better than doing another year now I feel trapped because her stupid friend told her that I should leave and I can’t and it’s currently taking another toll on my mental health rn what do I do