It’s currently 10 44 rn and I’m crying because I realizing that I don’t have a choice I have to do band next year and it driving me insane because I told my mom that I genuinely hated band and that I’ve been hiding my true thoughts I don’t like how suffocating it feels and how forced it makes me feel but my mom doesn’t understand she isn’t see what it’s doing to my mental state
I would be posting this on my main account but I feel if I do my band friends who has my main would think of me differently and It scares me of the backlash I would get if I do leave band, but I still told my mom that I didn’t like band because the backlash felt better than doing another year now I feel trapped because her stupid friend told her that I should leave and I can’t and it’s currently taking another toll on my mental health rn what do I do