Six-seven_67

I just realized I have like six or seven followers

Six-seven_67

Today my mother called me disgusting because I haven’t been washing my hair lately she threatened to cut it and said that I stunk. It’s not the first time shes said something about how I don’t take care of my self and I don’t know what to do because it really made me spiral a bit i thought about jumping from a very high place but i didn’t because it wasn’t high enough. I don’t like who I am I care about nothing especially not my self i try to get passionate for something but I can’t I only care about my best friends lives and im trying to learn to love my sister because she’s not the monster i used to see her. I have no hobbies and I’m trying to stop sh I’ve been clean for a month. I really hate my personality because a lot off ppl hate me or dislike me and I try to be a people pleaser and a rebel at the same time but I end up looking like an idiot i Don’t know what my future is but I feel that if I continue I’ll end up on the streets. Im not productive and I'm not nice I hate the way I see people and I hate how I see myself I don’t know what to do. Im not gonna commit tho don’t worry I'm in no position to.