Sk_2195

@preciselylilac hii Rudhi <3 good morning pretty little baby yeahh yeaah 
          [ i had to sing this ..nahi toh pura din man mein rehta :)) ]
          
          Honestly nowadays i come here to just read for sometime  because schedule itna hectic hogaya hai..but i remember you too..coincidentally a few days back i remembered that we used to talk but phir dimaag se hi likal gaya to sit and talk  .honestly din kaise nikal rahe hain pata hi nahi chal raha...
          
          What about you? How's your life going? How's the knitting going? Or is it crochet? And new hobbies? 
          
          Recently i tried to make a healthy version of ice cream :)
          ❤️✨️[ sunflower, double hearts, sparkes, hug and evil eye emoji] 
          
          P.S. - why is it called evil eye emoji ..shouldn't it be thw opposite of this?? (　＾▽＾)

@yChaudhary5 you too..

Hii buddy I just came to remind u my story power ke neeche pyar is going on if u wish to read plzz read it ♥️♥️

@Sk_2195 Hi sunflower girl, I hope its okay to call you that in a friendly way. I believe hum dono same age group se hi hain. Koi na age doesn't matter, the bond we're building feels safe is what holds more value right now. I agree with your advice of traveling sometimes going out gets a lot of weight of stress and thoughts off our chest. But... I'm not allowed to go out somewhere like with a friend or someone like that. I don't even have friends in this city XD. And even my family doesn't really go out that much, mujhe inke sath jana bhi nahi hai (⁠ー⁠_⁠ー⁠゛⁠) but yeah the water thing, I have this unexplained fear of deep water but sometimes when it's getting too loud in my head I let my hands sink in the water and just sit there with myself.  Nahi yeh wala gyaan to acha hi hai, nahi bhaagungi. Opening up has backfired for me quite a lot of times, and just now it felt like I should just keep it to myself because to other people it can be a bit overwhelming, because I am becoming so negative about my self and I'm losing all the hopes. Abhi abhi reality check ka thappad pada hai. And same dude being a hypersensitive being has its own pros and cons. Thank you so much SK. I hope you continue doing things for yourself. I want this energy of yours to be protected at all costs, really (evil eye emojis with sunflowers)❤️✨

@preciselylilac hiii [ sunflower , evil eye , sparkes, hearts ✨️❤️]..take your time...there is no need to be sorry..and dont worry..well i dont know your age to be honest, and i dont want to know because agar aap mere se bade ya chote nikal aaye toh main formally baat karna shuru kar doon gi automatically...
          
          So if possible travel..with the closest trustworthy person..a long trip or a short day trip...and just absorb the positive vibes..like if you are a water person visit a water body, forests or mountains anything ...and just sit and just watch the nature..
          This is something i do regularly and it helps to be honest...shuru mein lagta tha yeh kya bakwaas hai..so do something that is your own thing..
          Chalo aur zyada gayaan nahi de rahi main ..nahi toh aap bhaag jaoge :) ..well i am ultra hypersensitive..jispe rona chahiye ..uspe main hasti hoon ya chill rahti hoon..and choti si faltu baat par roh padti hoon...love you and take care...just dont keep anything inside..vent if you need..cry if need to ..be angry..speak..dont let it rot you from inside..Be strong!!! <3 <3

@Sk_2195 Hi SK, sorry late ho gaya but abhi abhi wifi mila. I hope you're doing well and I hope I didn't cause you guys too much stress with that message. I'm...not okay to be frank. I am definitely drained and exhausted and i can see myself becoming what I always wanted NOT TO BECOME. Aisa lag raha hai emotional sponge ne over absorb kar liya. Thank you so much kya pata Baba aapki hi sunle  par main chahungi aapke liye bhi woh sab acha karein. Aur apki khushiyon aur shaanti ko protect karein.
          
          No, this person doesn't have access to my Wattpad or any other author accounts. Thank you so much for reaching out. Please take care of yourself and don't stress too much about whatever I have said here. I'm hypersensitive emotionally and tend to express myself in the same manner at times. Love you! 

@preciselylilac just read your message..take all thw time you need...but answer this...Rudhi, are you okay? If not right now, You will be ?
           And i dont know what is going on in your life, but dont worry or keep everything inside..i will pray to mahadev ..voh theek kar dein ge sab..he will give the strength to overcome whatever obstacle you are facing ...<3 [ heart emoji, sparkle, sunflower and evil eye] 
          
          P.S. this person has access to your account here?

@Sk_2195 Thank you so much Sk ❤️wow a nickname with a meaning. I'm waiting. I'm okay, recovering the zombie mode I guess, since it's the last day of my periods. And I had eye strain I think last week. I only came to Wattpad because I saw your username in the notification. I'm trying, Sk, I am trying my best to protect my peace. Stitching isn't my profession yet, because people around here aren't willing to pay the price when it comes to me. Suddenly they want to form an imaginary connection with me and use that to get work done for free, which I don't do. And it takes a good amount of effort for someone who got their eyesight rolling down the hill during the practice period, not to mention the neck and back pain that is inevitable in this field. And on top of that (yes, literally a list) I have recently developed Myofascial Trigger Points. It's okay silai se door hi raho, Sk ʘ⁠‿⁠ʘ worst part is log kaam karwa ke apka motivation or morale down karne mein bilkul hesitate nahi karenge. So yeah...ah, no worries yaar. Araam karo❤️

@preciselylilac hiii...how are you? Mere bohot bure haal chal rahe hain (￣ー￣)
          
          But jaise taise chal hi rahi hoon..just had my farewell..initially i rhought my saree was messy ..like i had high expectations. But then i saw my photos..and in each and every one i was happy , not worrying about others..( touchwood) ..and then i saw it like really saw the it was looking aesthetic..
          
          Had one of the classmates like a distant friend...  jiski energy bahot unpredictable hai..like one second she is "nice" we are laughing on nonsense...and then she has this subtle body language that is not at all welcoming and dismissive..woh mere saath school se thi..changed her behaviour in college..and i even cauggt her backbitching about me ...but i never confronted her...did not want to ruin my peace..so just distanced myself..
          But its a funny thing log backbitching kartein hain and aapko dekh karte hain and then they deny it...matlab itne guts bhi nahi hain ki aap voh muh par bolo...
          But anyways, aise logon se mujhe farak nahi padta...
          
          So annually mera friend circle reduce ho raha hai..and if i stop and think about it , there is no thought ..like none at all..no negativity in me for them or me even..
          
          So now i am relaxing, chilling, happy..hope you too <3..✨️
          
          P.S. experienced with a new recipe...a "healthy" choco cake...somewhere between a pudding and a cake.. but kya banda hai na...oooffff 
          
          Chaliye yeh toh thi meri life ki soochna..aap kaisi hain? Still the same like before? Or something new? 

@preciselylilac <3 ❤️✨️