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Am I crazy that I wish I had a BF/GF who cared and fought for me? Or have friends who will support me and help? Or have the life I always wanted, and be that little girl who loves everyone and everything? Smile, laugh, live, love? I'll never be able to do that, so I'm sorry. Lexi, I'm sorry I lie and keep secrets from you, so I should just confess them later, Jesse, I'm sorry I doubted you and called you a gay fag, when I should of helped instead of hated. Nick, I'm sorry I'm a coward who can't confess shit to you, and I'm sorry for teasing you and being a little bitch, I'm sorry to everyone who met me, you should of told me to fuck off and never speak to you again. I wish I had someone to hold me and tell me it's okay, and to make me laugh as they hugged me tightly. But dreams sometimes never come true, I'll die sooner or later and end my misery.