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Oh yeah. It’s April i’m a year clean! I might be falling into a depression episode again but I’ll try to stay strong for the people who love me.

GUYS I AM DATING MY BSF SINCE FIRST GRADE. OMG THEIR SO AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL AND I LOVE THEM SO MUCH.  i think we’re dating..? I don’t know we flirted for four hours straight yesterday and said “I love you” multiple times, and made Pinterest posts abt each other but I don’t know maybe we’re not. (Im oblivious and obsessed with them <3) their literally the best and i read want to experience super sweet teeth rotting teenage romance with them. AAAAAA I LOVE THEM SM!!!!!!!

Guys there’s a brokencyde concert where I live on like march 9th

GUYS I GOT MY BRACES REMOVED! It’s only stage one and just my front four teeth, I have to go back today to get a placement replacement while my permanent one gets made ^^ it’s gonna be blue. They also gave me a bag full of stuff I wasn’t allowed to eat with braces (I still ate it with braces but had no problems) so yum free snacks!

Ugh I have to have a meeting at the school cause one of my “friends” mom is a bitch who thinks I’m bullying her daughter when I’m really just warning others about her daughters actions.

GUYS IM GONNA GO TO NEW YORK TO WATCH HEATHERS, FOR MY SISTERS BIRTHDAY.

Oh btw in my last post I was kinda panicking because my best friend since 2nd grade just said she didn’t want to be friends. But I DID NOT relapse<3 this btw is a friend who was very damaging to my mental health. 
          
          I once told my friends I c-t and they started avoiding me. I ask them why and she said “we can’t be friends, my mom said people who c-t themselves end up school sh00ters” so like any sane person I went and broke down crying on the monkey bars like one does. Eventually my friends come and comfort me. 
          
          You know what I found out. She and one of my other friends were holding my actual friend back from comforting me. You know how much that hurts. I was 9-10 when that happened.

WAIT WIA TWHO IS THS

… I’m genuinely about to relapse. But I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I can’t. I’ve been clean since like basically April. No. August. But it was only one small one. It doesn’t count. Right? Does it. Maybe I am a disappointment. Maybe she’s right. Help. Help. Ok may as well tell you the text messages. 
          
          Her: Ok fine I don't want to be friends anymore sorry but I just think it's not a good to be friends have a good day and if you want tell D and A we can still talk at school just I feel like a dog on a leash I want new friends I want to try things have a good day Elliot. 
          
          Me:I’m sorry. I just feel weird because the guy I like for 2-3ish years rejected me and my best friend is hanging out with him. I’m sorry but I’m genuinely just hurt. Hang out with Cece, Finley. I don’t care. Just know that they will most likely turn their backs on you. Cece promised she wouldn’t tell him but she did. I’m genuinely sick of giving you so many chances. And every single time you come back crying trying to manipulate me into accepting you back. Almost all the drama in my life has sprouted from you. I’m sick of you and your parents not taking accountability for your actions. You do not know what I have gone through in my life. I have literally tried to kill myself. You have no Idea how luck I am to be alive right now. And people like you make me want to try again. 
          
          IM I BEING DRAMATIC HELP IM LITERALLY SO CLOSE TO RELAPSE IM GONNA HAVE A PANIC ATTACK

Omg so far 2026 has been ass. Sure I went to see six the musical but omg so many shitty things have happened. The guy I liked rejected me even though I didn’t even ask him a stupid fucking popular girl told him. AND MY FUCKING 500$ LEGO SET COLLECTION’S SHELF BROKE AND NOW THEIR ALL OVER THE FLOOR BROKEN. OMG HOW AM I STILL ALIVE IK THIS SOUNDS HELLA DRAMATIC AND LIKE IM A LITTLE WINEY BITCH BUT GENUINELY HOW HAVE I NOT KMS YET?!?!?!??!??!?