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It's a scary thought, wanting to kill yourself.
What's even more scary is not being afraid to take your life and take the leap of faith, pop the pill, and leave this forsaken place forever.
You don't know how daunting it is to always have that thought of wanting to kill yourself, the will to do it, but never getting around to do it.
Because you are afraid that the world has driven you to such lengths that you ARE NOT AFRAID to kill yourself.
The little voice in your mind telling you to do it but you can't because you are afraid of how numb you've become to the feeling of taking your life.
You WANT to change, you WANT to get better but you can't. The pressure of the world WANTING you to do it makes you stop. You WANT to PROVE them wrong. You WANT to PROVE to the little voice you are stronger much stronger than that and you WILL continue living your life.
LIVING TO THE FULLEST
But, the voice never leaves, it becomes a part of you forever. It becomes a reason you are you, a token of your strength.
But it will always remain a token because that's just how small it really is.
Sticks and stones may brake my bones but words can shatter me in seconds.