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Hey guys,
I'm gonna be honest with all of you because it wouldnt be fair to those expecting an update if i just stayed silent about this. I'm gonna be honest about myself.
I am shit in school. The past 3 years have been shitty, and I have had 3 years to myself to make up for my marks, but no, i keep letting myself and my parents down. I aspire to be so much, but i dont seem to meet the expectations to be what i do, neither can i live up to my potential now. I have been so good at writing but for some reason my creativity has just been dropping, i keep getting constant writers block, and the energetic smart happy child my school once is now just a normal regular dumb teenager. I don't know what i am doing with my life or what i am doing, but i dont have very long until i have to make a choice with what im going to do. With these marks, i probably wouldnt even be accepted in a regular normal college.
I havent only been failing my parents, but my teachers and my friends. I have let all of them down in one way or another. I want to change but I do not know how to start by saying what shitty of a friend I am and what a terrible student I am. Even if my conduct is fine, i am dying here with these marks. But more importantly, I am failing myself. I know I could do better, but i dont know why i am not. Theres so much change in me over the years and i guess i'm just distracted.
Gosh I havent updated in so long that im back to 99, i can only understand. I'm going to go on a temporary break guys. I will still be on discord but not as often. I will most likely come online here on christmas and new year. But again, I am sorry to everyone who I let down, I am sorry to myself, to all of you. I love all of you so much, I really hope things will turn out for the better. I will let you know on my original stories a little later, and I will also be putting the GC book on a pause
Thank you for understanding <3