Jasper

Ahhhhhhhh
          
          
          I got Genshin Impact and I'm so ridiculously happy ><
          
          I've wanted for over a year but never had space to get it on my tablet but we got a PC so I could finally download it and I'm so excited. I almost cried when it finished downloading ;-; that's how happy I was.

Ya'll Wattpad changed the layout for the books(at least on the website, idk about the app) and I genuinely hate it. It looks so bad, like the old one was 1000% better, I hope they change it back cuz the new one sucksssss (imo) ;-;

Guess who just got broken up with.
          
          
          That's right! Me!
          
          
          Not surprised, long distance relationships rarely last.
          
          
          this is my first break up so idk how TF to cope with this. lol i've been crying on and off for like almost five hours because my now ex(that's a strange for me to thing to say-) said they really needed to talk to me after school and then something came up and they couldn't text me and so I had quite a 'few' hours to overthink and come to the conclusion that they were gonna break up with me.
          
          
          
          I've decided to still be friends with them cuz they were my friend first and foremost before my partner. It's gonna take me some time before I can't talk to them, after all it was an almost 1 year relationship and I still really love them.

Ya'll I'm fucked.
          
          My speech therapist uses ChatGPT...
          
          For simple 6 digit numbers (Example; 9-8-2-7-3-6) and random unrelated words.
          
          I hate the word I live in. Tbh I might ask for a new speech therapist, even though I really like her besides the AI usage :/
          
          If only she just used her brain and not AI.
          
          
          Also if any of you support AI or (knowingly) use it. Fuck off. Unfollow me. I don't want you on my page. Fuck you. Actually tell me so I can fucking block you.

tw for animal death
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          So just when I was starting to get over my late dogs passing, our family cat has to be fucking put down too.
          
          i know why. her kidneys are failing, she's not rebounding like she's done before. nothing is working to help. she's not happy. she's old.
          
          im just not prepared to lose the last bit of my childhood I still had.
          
          safe to say im going through a lot rn.

Officially over 2,000 words for the fic I'm working on!! I'm so proud of myself! I'm almost 100% sure their will another 1,000-2,000 more words in it before I'm done ^^
          
          Hopefully I'll have it out in the next few days if my motivation stays the way it is rn :3

Don't you hate it when your social anxiety is so bad it take a whole whopping 7 minutes to just write a 16 word reply. Just two sentences and it took 7 whole minutes.
          
          Kinda sad when you think about it lol
          
          
          
          Anygays. I wrote 1,582 words last night in about 1 hour and 48 minutes. I probably could've gotten farther but then I got the comfort part of it and I couldn't come up with anything. Turns out when you haven't experienced the thing your writing it can make it extremely hard to write! I can write angst just fine, especially when I'm in a shitty mental place like I was last night, but as soon as I need to write comfort it's so hard ;-; I'll gonna try and work on it more today and see if I can actually write the comfort.
          
          I love writing hurt/comfort fics but the latter half of them are soooo hard to writeeeeee. 
          
          Also this is a totally different fic from the sentient Arahabaki fic cuz Arahabaki is hard to write so I'm taking a small break from that one to write some Dazai angst! Hopefully it'll come out soon, idk yet tho. I'm not abandoning the other fic just taking a step back to give me time to think about it ^^

;-;
          
          Been trying to write cuz I have an idea for a fanfic but my chronic pain is deciding to be a jerk and not let me type things. Ughhh I might just have to like power through it cuz I know if I don't write this rn the motivation will disappear and won't come back for another 3 months or I'll just you know forget what I have planned because of my stupid ADHD.
          
          
          Anyways! Hi guys, I know I haven't really posted a lot (announcement wise) recently and thats just cuz depression has decided to kick my butt and so I've just been superrrrr low energy! But I do plan to post something soon(like an actual fic-) well as long as my ADHD, depression and chronic pain lets me it'll hopefully be out before next month ^^ (I plan to make it 1,000+ words....  OH also it is gonna be a Bungou Stray Dogs fanfic)
          
          The fic is gonna have some sentient Arahabaki!! Cuz I loveeeee sentient Arahabaki with all my soul and I also love it when Arahabaki is actually nice to Chuuya!! :3

I've been thinking(yes I know very dangerous)
          
          But maybe I should change my user on here. I mean don't get me wrong, I love my user but at the sametime I wanna change it to what I use on other platforms so they're all the same.
          
          So what do you guys think? Should I change it to [Sleepy_Pup_Jazz]?

I'm crying. /pos
          
          Someone I see as a big sibling called me little brother twice today and they also called me buddy and that made me so happy and made me feel all fuzzy inside and that's something i really need to feel especially cuz I'm going through a rough time rn ;-;