@Sleepy_Remi
Haha, ending a three year toxic relationship never felt so fucking draining.
Stuck.
Like in the ocean filled with lies.
Or in quicksand, choking on memories.
Tied with strings like a puppet,
Being forced to dance like a slave.
Chained in a cage like a animal,
Seen as nothing to this day.
Failure, escape, empty.
Failure to be what I’m expected to be.
Escape the reality and hide in my dreams.
Empty and numb to everything.
Stuck.
I feel stuck.
The future is only getting closer,
Life is changing from what I knew.
I am not her.
She is not me.
She will never be me anymore.
She is GONE.
Forgotten.
Her existence was Fatal from the start.
All that’s left is the Shards,
No Th30ries or answers.
All left in the past.
Stuck.
In a limbo or purgatory.
I’ll never understand what I’ve become.
I really want to punch someone in the face
We used to be close
But people can go
From people you know
To people you don’t
And what hurts the most
Is that people can go
From people you know
To people you don’t..
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“We didn’t realize we were making memories, we were just having fun”
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday to me
Happy birthday dear Remi..
Happy birthday to me
I guess the paranormal can’t really leave me alone, can it?
Listening to songs, especially the songs we used to love together, and just thinking about the good times I spent with her. It made me realize how I broke things off before I even had a chance to even think about it. I knew I wouldn’t be happy with her and I knew she wouldn’t be happy staying with me. Unable to communicate most times, personal issues, and then becoming codependent on her. We were both young and immature, and now I realized we would’ve never lasted long. It was bound to happen. Even then, I still cherish those memories. She’ll always be my first love, and my first heartbreak. I hope she’s well.
Through the meadow
Through the trees
Through the branches
Through the leaves
Singing a chorus
For the creatures before us
Speaking out poetry
If only they knew me
Through the forest
Full of life
Past the river
Watch them cry
Through the meadow
Have them say goodbye
For all we know
They could be running out of time
Ah school.
Fuck you
Merry Christmas!
My present was a mental breakdown :D