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I have discovered something about myself.
For some reason, I am unable to kill characters that I have honestly grown to...care for. That I have grown fond of playing as.
All of the characters that I have killed, were almost always destined to die. Thus, I never really tried to write them. Sure they have personality, some character, and a backstory. But, they usually never are as complex as all the characters I...don't plan on killing. Or, just are not as interesting ('Not interesting' characters are great too of course if anything almost everything character has something about them :)) ) in my view.
...that may or may not be the reason why... I have not killed Nova thus far. Some darn part of me just does not want to or is too scared to do so.
I have been talking about it, spoiling it. But when it comes to action... I can't. In the latest attempt, I was online. I was there. I had every opportunity, I could have easily killed him off without anyone around. Make it a bit less painful.
But I couldn't.
Perhaps, I truly never will be able to be a villain. Nor play as one. Because I am too afraid to get rid of characters.
Darn, I am down bad flip. How do I wanna write stories if i cannot kill off characters I like :((