Long rant ahead, nothing bad just getting this off my chest cause I can't talk to my friend abt it, and some other stuff cause I literally cannot shut up even when I'm writing :)
I'm literally so ready to come out as trans and bi to my parents, but I'm scared too. It feels the same when I was ready to tell them I was a lesbian, just less scared? Idk how that makes sense since I really don't know how they will react. Both of them aren't homophobic, my dad isn't transphobic as far as I'm aware, but I'm not too sure about my mum. I don't think she is but I could never know.
But yea, like I'm really nervous just not scared... It's also funny how I will have done this twice when I do finally tell them lmaoo. Technically 3 times since I'm bi as well lol.
Anyways, I also need to get a job and it's going to happen pretty soon I think, so doing that before telling my parents is gonna be a bit weird, will have to use my deadname sadly. Can't go into a job telling them a name that I can't have on a name tag or smth cause if I did use my preferred name then my parents would be confused lol
Also on top of having a preferred name, I'm not too sure if I like Tyler... I don't think that name suits me anymore and I've been feeling like this for a while actually, I just don't know what to be called atm. No name has popped into my head that fits like a glove... Not that I've really been trying to figure out a new name as of late just been a thought back up there in all of the other thoughts that aren't so important...
I kinda have bad voice dysphoria If that's a thing? Like I guess it is I suppose. I just hate it, obviously it won't sound how I really want it to cause I'm not on T but still, I just wish I could sound the way I want to. That's really the only thing I'm dysphoric about, yea I hate my chest but that's only cause I can't get it flat enough so sometimes it just puts off the illusion I'm cis :(