Ellie Lawless

Guys it’s been a very very long time since I was here. I know no one really gives a shit about me on this platform lol which is why I’m going to spill all the tea. So I am in orchestra I play the violin. Today we had a rehearsal for this conference thing and we had a seating chart. In this seating chart I was next to this guy who I had previously admired from afar (girl in red reference lol). Now he was right next to me. He made the shitiest jokes that shouldn’t have been funny but he was the one talking so I laughed. And we lowkey bonded over how we both switched to first violin and were sight reading even though we need to lock in. I know you’re thinking “Lizzy this is amazing go get your man” NO. I CANT. BECAUSE HES A MOTHER LOVING JUNIOR. I’m a freshmen for context. That is so nasty like euughhh. I refuse to be a freshmen dating a junior so no matter how much I fucking like him I CANT DATE HIM OR ANYTHING LIKE WHAT IN THE UNFAIR!? thanks for listening if you read this far. Love you 

Guys I have a new fine shyt and is very fine. 
          
          So basically he's like this really popular ish guy but like I don't think he's ever had a girlfriend? At least not that I know of. He's in like all of my classes and he is one of those people who is so outgoing that you kinda just know who they are. I started to kinda like him then. But then we got new seating charts in two of my classes AND I WAS NEXT TO HIM IN BOTH!! did I mention that he is like SUPER good at hockey? But anyway I actually had a couple conversations with him but it was like 
          "how do you do this problem?" 
          "You just distribute the 7"
          So yeah. But then for science WE WERE LAB PARTNERS!!! but of course this is the quarter where we only did like 2 labs. But we did elephants toothpaste together and we're bonding over how weird the other kid in our group is? It's kinda hard to explain. Like a week after that. The weird kid that is usually in our group was gone and it was just me and fine shyt. I accidentally flung my pencil across the desk and I caught it but HIS HAND LANDED ON TOP OF MINE so obviously I didn't want to be weird and I snatched my hand back and said "thank you" but I was LITERALLY DYING on the inside because what!? And then later that same day I could feel him staring at me for like a whole 3 seconds. But then after that he doesn't talk to me anymore for some reason. Like I am really weird but nothing has happened since that day. So yeah I still like him but we got a new seating chart in both classes so I don't sit by him anymore  thank you for tolerating my rant <3

Here is a completey random hear me out list (yes I am aware that some of these are really weird): 
          Bob from minions 
          The number 7
          The wave from Moana
          Johnny from hotel Transylvania 
          Nick from zootopia 
          Sven from frozen 
          Jack Frost
          Camilo from encanto 
          Mufasa 
          Puss in boots 
          The horse from Rapunzel 
          Hiccup from how to train your dragon 
          The wild krat guys
          The male vocals of Brooklyn baby by Lana del rey

I just read heartless by Marissa Myer and I am so empty inside 

I got braces today...

Random book recommendation again.... I just read to many books ig 
          So anyways the caraval series is literally SO. AMAZING. Just trust it's literally so good go look into it

Random book recommendation; The lunar chronicles OH. MY. GOD. I AM OBSESSED with it rn I just finished the third book of you need a book to read that's dystopian and a bit of romance and like action and plot twists and an emotional rollercoaster please go read the series I cannot recommend it enough

Does anyone else ever get that feeling where you feel like you're going to cry yourself to sleep tonight?

I hope something good happened to you today 

how exited are you all for unraveled book 9.5 of the kotlc series ITS ALL FROM KEEFE'S VIEW EEEEEEEEEE