Jess

Bitch this is my old acc from like 2017-2018

CURRENTLY PANICKING. I JUST GOT MY 1st PERIOD. I WAS WATCHING CARRIE>

Merry Christmas!!

My song rn https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pUlX8ltm_JU

Rest In Peace To The Most Amazing, Caring And Thoughtful Best Friend, Your In Our Hearts And Minds

Please don’t do anything. I would be so sad if you took your life or just harmed yourself in general. I truly do care about you, you know, and I would hate myself if I wasn’t able to convince you to stay alive. There ARE people who care about you. There ARE people who love you. There ARE people who will be here for you. So, please, just hang in there. It’ll be worth it. I promise. I’ll be here to talk if you need someone.

Im waiting for someone to tell me to stop, and stay alive for them. but it wont happen.

I think I might just end it.

Im nothing. im fucking nothing. I should just kill myself. nobody cares

“Suicide. It's something I've been thinking about. Not too seriously, but I have been thinking about it.” 
          
          That's the note. Word for word. And I know it's word for word because I wrote it dozens of times before delivering it. I'd write it, throw it away, write it, crumple it up, throw it away.
          
          But why was I writing it to begin with? I asked myself that question every time I printed the words onto a new sheet of paper. Why was I writing this note? It was a lie. I hadn't been thinking about it. Not really. Not in detail. The thought would come into my head and I'd push it away.
          
          But I pushed it away a lot.